all things happen for a reason... for 'no' reason, my precious phone got itself into my porridge last night (i didnt have time to eat my home-packed lunch and it spilled out in my lunch bag where i threw in my phone when i was in hurry to knock off work at 930pm).. what a horror when i finally arrived home! after cleaning the mess, i cant get the lcd screen to function! tried all means, it just refused to light up.. no choice, i just had to use my old phone while i relunctantly pack it for service centre.. *trust me, i was really so devastated, esp after a depressing day at work*
my little purple back-up phone.. it used to be my precious phone.. it got me a while to get used to its functions again, but i cant help feeling the aching pain of knowing it used to be my precious phone... a lot of memories in this phone..
alone, i headed to PS for servicing during lunch.. alone, i felt the heartache even more.. alone, i went into saved messages function.. alone, i started reading..first sms from him was 15aug07, the last was 12aug08.. just 1yr period.. so much can change and had changed from the same person..
15Aug07
"I know i'm nuisance by asking u again n again.but tis is NOT the way i hope,wish,want or pray for.i always n still believe love overcome all things,as long both r willing to work together,just like our song.2 strangers can support each other in this path we chose.since chosen,I'll not back out despite comes what may.i love you,bosco"
12Aug08
"I have my things, thanks n i'm sorry u had to hear it from Jacob. Wasn't my intention but wad's done is done. I've responded to ur blog, i have a little prayer at the end that i wish u would pray for me too.Take care n may God continue to bless n watch over u n ur family.Bosco aka B"
cant tell you how much it hurt again to read these.. just 2 messages (first n last) are enough to make my eyes watery.. my bro commented i should let go.. and have i not? but these are memories which were once so closed to heart.. of their once so close promixity, the heart feels the ache again.. esp when i'm facing such a depressing work situation, the pain magnified.. how i wished i had a shoulder to cry on.. trust me, the reminder was really bad.. even though i managed to fight it off, the punch was hard..
after 3hrs of Bible Study, i'm better now - more cheerful in person and in spirit.. my god-bro david likes to tease me - no matter how depressed or worse i am, i wont stay in that stage for long.. cos i'll bounce back to joy after some church stuff, be it prayer meetings, cg or bible study.. well, what can i say? i really thank God for who He is.. without Him, without His Grace, i cant and wont be where i am now.. i know jogging and bananas help to fight depression but i tell you, it's your walk with God that will shield and pull you out from any negativity!! turn to Jesus in all your ways! He is your Fountain of Joy, Endless Flow of Heavenly Living Water!
Psa 61:1-3
O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
I have seen you in the sanctuary and beheld your power and your glory.
Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you.
Isa 49:10
They will neither hunger nor thirst, nor will the desert heat or the sun beat upon them. He who has compassion on them will guide them and lead them beside springs of water.
John 6:35
Then Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty."
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