29 Jul 09 - Hello Kitty

omg, i cant believe i'll be staying in a totally PINK room with hello kitty!! trust me, this is not excitment but TOTAL UNBELIEF!

for those of u who wonders.. well, you know i'm going on taiwan trip with my mum.. but suddenly, last-minute and totally spontaneous, my aunt wants to join and now 2-pax becomes 3-pax. a lot of time-fighting to integrate her into our travel plan..

1) asking around for best deal single airticket - the effort was great cos i've to call and ask the agents and even the airline counter itself.. thankfully, due to my friendliness and good relationship, my tour agent was able to 'snatch' a seat in the same flight which was totally full and man, that was the fastest payment i've ever made! i mean it! from the moment she say 'hey, wait' to 'here's the ticket', it's a short duration of 5mins! (no wonder i'm her one of favourite customer~)

2) getting additional accommodation - ok, this is the frustrating cos i'm really not into the idea of sharing my double bed with my aunt! seriously, sharing with my mum is still comfortable (afterall we squeezed onto my small bed before).. but my aunt?! let's just say that's not something i look forward to, even in travelling.. i really humbled my tone of speech to ask for options and suggestions from the house owner whose haughty voice indicated we're paying 'peanuts for his extra work' (typical hongkonger attitude!!) *trust me, i was really annoyed at his reply!* well, to cut long story short, he finally gave me another room booking of a single room at relative cheap rate of NTD1000/night. *ok, i'm happy enough that he explored and offered, but i'm still quite upset with his initial remark* cos it's a newly furnished room there's no picture published on his room rental website yet, so he was kind enough (he better be!) to attach some pictures for my reference and..

I NEARLY FAINTED!

though i like red/pink, but this is really WAY OFF~! but for the sake of staying with my mum n aunt under same roof, i guess this is the best offer i can get *oh my goodness, i really cant imagine myself in this room~ so girly!!* honestly, who in his/her right mind will stay in this room?! *shudders*

28 Jul 09 - Too late to learn and appreciate

ok, bro, for your sake, i'm contributing this entry.. fyi, my dear bro david has been asking me for 'interesting' things in my life now.. typical concerned aka 'k-po' brother of mine

ok, to my horror, a guy 'confessed' thru msn that he has been trying to date me out.. (bcos he has always been active organising events for singles gathering, i've never thought these 'little acts' are 'excuses' for his moves- true ignorance!) i know i'm hard to please and when a guy tries this way to date me, i can really and seriously be turn-off..i really mean it. to me, it seems like he 'suddenly' takes such keenness into my interests and started to get informed and engaged in all the arts and musicals in singapore *boy, this IS scary* i'm even on the verge of asking a good friend to fake my boyfriend, in order to keep this guy away *somebody, pls help~*

i know i've told you guys to take initiative.. but sudden initiation is also not a good idea.. it's really freaky when someone suddenly take such strong initiative, and to be truthful - it's kinda repels me away.. why cant you guys be sensitive and graceful in your approach? i wonder where are all your tact and wisdom? and do you not know that i'm attracted to wisdom?

thankfully i'm well ahead of his arty-farty events.. afterall i've been an arts supporter in singapore for years, i know which and what scope of arts i'd enjoy.. like i've always said, i know what i want, usually very specific and knows my preferences in life... so... too bad for this guy - sometimes it's just too late to learn and appreciate some things in life.. it's like a pri school boy trying to impress a sec school girl with his primary knowledge *gosh!*

27 Jul 09 - Inclination of mind and eagerness~

Acts 17:11
Now these [Jews] were better disposed and more noble than those in Thessalonica, for they were entirely ready and accepted and welcomed the message [concerning the attainment through Christ of eternal salvation in the kingdom of God] with inclination of mind and eagerness, searching and examining the Scriptures daily to see if these things were so.

*wow.. 'with inclination of mind and eagerness' and 'searching and examining the Scriptures daily to see if these things were so' - the spirit of theologists*
after getting started on the concept of 'doctrine' and 'theology', the lesson has started to get into its lesson proper (even though we still sidetrack to some controversial topics from time to time) it is then that i realised 'woah,these people are really serious into the Word' (i'm feeling so guilty for having a see-learn attitude, J, got to buck up!)..really, they are very well-informed of the church world.. and i must say, i really very impressed by my lecturer - Rev Dr Benard Low, he really knows the Word in details and in depth! ok, to be fair, he is associate pastor of BP church, a PhD holder in theology, Christian for 30yrs, he's my lecturer and also the director of CCTE, for goodness' sake!!.. of course, he must and should have these exposure and knowledge, let alone the profound terminologies.. HE'S REALLY GOOD! *p/s: he's only 38yrs old!! gosh, where will i be when i'm 38yrs old?* if you think theology is a dry topic as it can be, it's really fun in his class..

i guess, after best wednesdays (RCIA days) last yr, this time round will be a great time of great mondays bcos of this class. i really wish i can share with you on this subject - The Doctrines of Revelation and Scripture, but till then.. i just want you to know I REALLY ENJOYING THE CLASS! (btw can someone help me on the assignment?!) heehee..

here's a little gift he shared on the topic of different denominations and i really love it~ :)
In every major things, we have unity;
In every minor things, we have liberty;
In all things, we have love.

23 Jul 09 - Taiwan? Marriage??

whenever someone knows i'm travelling to taiwan again, the immediate response is 'why?' *what a good question* if you are on good terms with me, my reply is 'to conduct interviews for my future husband'.. the most convenient answer as well, cos i'm bringing my mum along on this trip - if my mum agrees, we can go into marriage preparation etc etc.. in reality, it's almost the case cos i'll be having lunch dates and dinner dates with my taiwanese friends, and they teased me on this issue too.. i mean, they really sounded 'getting ready' to meet their 'rivals' and 'future mother-in-law'!?

when i told my mum about this, my mum suddenly got serious with a 'are-you-serious' reply... i was amusedly shocked~ i mean, she really think these guys are serious in this topic!? ok, i shared with my friend recently.. singaporean (guy) friends have no initiative and not sensitive when it comes to courtship; on the contrary, taiwanese are full of creative initiation and totally sensitive but never serious (at least with me) when we talk about courtship.. my dear friend kai can even discuss life-after-marriage with me in details, as if he's serious.. *see,that's how "fun" and crappy they can be"

then the question i ask myself - am i really looking for non-singaporean bf? hmm.. interesting.. well, i tried but we didnt work out, thankfully we're still good friends now.. so am i? noooooooooooo.. seriously, no! i know i seem to be looking forward to live in taiwan, to stay there 'long-term', but to marry off to taiwan is a totally different issue, ok?

though i'm very much accustomed to taiwanese lifestyle, but i'd still prefer to work and be with my family (not to mention my precious hugo) in singapore.. if there's ever such possibility, i think he must be quite well-off, cos he'd have to shuttle flying between taiwan and singapore much often.. for now, such conceivability is non-existent. and if you people want to pray for this, can you pray for a singaporean who works in taiwan or some where? my roots is and will still be in singapore. *gosh, i'm patriotic*



This is home truly, where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me, where that river always flows
This is home surely, as my senses tell me
This is where I won't be alone, for this is where I know it's home
For this is where I know it's home

20 Jul 09 - Back to school.. in pain

have you ever wonder why people commit to attend Bible College or bother to really study into the Bible, even though they are not going to priest/ priestess? i mean, the Bible - the most popular book worldwide, most controversial book of century yet has become so 'novelised' by many, even by Christians ourselves.. yes, we all know it's God's Word to us, His very own Revelation through the hands of inspired individuals throughout the century, written in black&white for us all... but how many of us really take the Scriptures seriously as GOD'S PERSONAL WORD? for many Christians, reading the Bible is as good as bedtime stories.. even if you are more matured in your Christian walk, many of us will try to commit into daily reading/devotionals.. why some of us really study the Word seriously?

desire to know God more? i must say that's a very politically right answer, but is it the true reflection of our hearts? or, responding to our call to be pastor/deacon of the church? or, do we just want to be more knowledgeable than our fellow Christians.. seriously, i dont know and i wont know, not even for myself..

all i know is when you study topics like theology, it tends to broaden your perception of what-you-know.. it challenges what we believes as 'right' of God yet it empowers us to obtain a higher knowledge in the Truth through systematics, giving us the grace to be charitable with one another in the same Body. with God being a rationale and logical Creator (remembers? He works in His Timetable - systematic), it's no wonder theology is deemed as queen of sciences... in case you dun know, i love science! gosh, i think i'm really going to enjoy my classes, despite its 1 thick reading of main text + 16 supplementary readings + 1 four-pages assignment as 'exam' to be completed by end of September (2mth from now)!!

goodness, everything that happens in my life happen at the same time..
1) my recent smooth and fast job offer *honestly, i really thank God for opening doors and windows of Heaven to pour His blessings like this - everything is so swift and efficient, all 'aligned' with what i wished in my heart; who dares to challenge the power of prayers*..
2) the Bible Sunday homily by Fr Yim, and the Sunday service by Pst Kong on Prayer Life, renewing my personal commitment with my God and His Word..
3) and now, start of SBC school term with one of my favourite subjects - Christian theology, in spite of my agonizing cycle which tempted me with traunt on my first lesson..

everything seems to be pointing to a new chapter for me.. i know something is brewing yet i just dont know..
the mystery of future lies in the bed of excitement and curiousity, requiring the persistency of faith to unveil the wonders of His Grace~



1 Tim 5:17
Let the elders that rule well be counted worthy of double honour, especially they who labour in the word and doctrine.

1 Tim 4:16
Take heed to yourself and to the doctrine. Continue in them, for in doing this you will save both yourself and those who hear you.

17 Jul 09 - Lost in AMK?!?

to be honest, i dun understand why people are so afraid of getting lost, esp IN SINGAPORE?! i mean, come'on this is only a DOT on the globe so what's the big diff of exploring a few more blocks to get back to your block? come'on, when the amercians can even consider '2 blocks away'(2 sections/roads' distance) as near distance, i really dun understand why the panic when you are just FEW HDB BLOCKS away from your block?!?! (p/s: a note of advice to those of you who have short-sightedness yet STUBBORNLY REFUSED to wear spec or contacts!! HAVE WISDOM!) ok, if you are scare of being lost, then jolly well be sure you can see your path clearly!! either that, or you jolly well learn to enjoy exploring your area!! dun freak people out by giving them a panic call for direction, when you are obviously not willing to take any more instructions cos you are simply too fearful to 'get lost'!

look, people can tell you where you stand, how to go to your destination from your point, but it is you who have to first identify where you are at now, before people can direct you! look around! (that's the reason why you need to SEE CLEARLY!) dun freaking hell shout at me, when i'm trying to identify where you are so i can help you! if you are so afraid of getting lost, then why cant you plan your route before you set off!?!? that's why maps are for, right? even if you are map-idiot and BLIND, then ASK around! what's the point of being swivet and shouting at the one who is trying to help?

trust me, this is the first and the LAST i'll help her to get around ang mo kio! honestly! it's only ANG MO KIO!
*her block is standing BEHIND where she was standing 'lost' when she was screaming for help over the phone! **she refused to wear eye-wear cos she think her short-sightedness of 200degress is 'ok', yet SHE CANT SEE IT BEHIND* and to think her home country - malaysia is much bigger than singapore, what is her freaking ground for such unreasonable scream!?!

13 Jul 09 - Best Career Consultant

i dont know if you've known, but i've the intention of moving on with my career.. i need something more challenging, more fulfiling per se. then again, i'm grateful to God for His Divine plan and my boss for her favour to allow my return, esp after my drastic leaving in depression.. caught in this dilemma, i had been wavering and proscrastinating.. unless God moves, i know it'll be a futile moving attempt on my part..

to be frank, He has always been the One planning my career path, blessing me with smooth interview in great companies.. after a break from WMG, i started looking around and i was 'guided' to AUO where i worked with the world's best director and team... trust me, this job is 'given' onto my lap cos the whole process was so smooth and fast that i got the offer within few days.. then when i had the urgency to move out, God opened another door so swiftly that i gotten 2 job offers with 2 major great MNCs.. best part - i didn't send in application to either companies at all! after praying for direction, He showed me to my current position (trust me, if i've taken the other, i'm very sure i wont be given a chance to return to my position after my condition)..

now i'm having this intention to move out again. once again, God shines His light onto my path! i received this call (note: i didn't send in my application again) and i agreed to explore my options..oh my gosh, besides from MFA interview, i've never been through such a long stringent tests! honestly, i'm not in favour for interview testings cos i've absolutely no patience and no energy for that! i mean, i'm happy and confident with interview screenings but why the need for those lengthy and time-comsuming tests!? they can really zapped all my energy *perhaps that's why i didn't get through the MFA tedious rounds of interview even though it's my 'dream' job* anyway, i went through the best i know how, called in again for 2nd interview and within few hours after interview, i've gotten a new job offer with this great MNC!!

i really thank all of you who are praying for me and my interviews! there's power in prayers! though i hate the feeling of being energy-drained but i can really feel the 'push' inside to maintain sharpness during the data analysizing test. where can this force be from, except from your prayers! (i know my friend actually prayed through the whole interview hr for me to stay alert! talk about standing-in-the-gap!! thanks, bro!) thank you for your prayers! i know i cant do it without God's annoiting, God's plan in my life.. if God moves, i'll move.

i know some of you might think it's coincident or 'lucky'.. but how can anyone be so 'lucky' to have 3 rounds of job offers so smoothly and swift? not to forget that each came unapplied when it's time to move out from the current.. no time can be more timely than His Divine time! when God opens doors for you, He will clearly indicate this is the way to go!

Jesus is my Best Career Consultant! I love You, Jesus! You are ever so true and so faithful! You are Great God who take cares of details, every single details in our lives! I love You, God! Praise and Glory be to You in the Highest!

11 Jul 09 - Venting in retro

allow me to vent retrospectively..ON MY BLOG!
seriously, guys, i really dont know where are your mannerism, let alone chivalry!

i have this friend since poly.. i mean, it's ok to scoff at friends when you were young and 'ignorant', but after 10yrs if you have not learnt your manners, please! you are just pure hopeless! and knowing that he's a absolutely hopeless crappy brat, i tried all means to avoid him for years.. but from time to time, he'll still tries his luck (and pushing it too far if you ask me!) *please, why cant some people get the obvious 'hint' to stay clear!*

recently he's pushing his luck again.. called me out for movie AT LAST MINUTE. taking into account of our friendship, i tried to be nice and have already informed him that i dont entertain last minute invites (trust me, i really DONT entertain last minute requests unless i'm very comfy with you), yet it just didnt get through his impenetrable skin! he'll call again few days later to ask me out again.. as though i owe him a date! talk about THICK-SKIN! i understand the concept of persistency but guys, please exercise some WISDOM too! after years of 'NO', dont you get it!?!

what really piss me off is his last call (or rather i declare 'his last call' cos i'll NEVER give him any chance of friendship again!) - he called to pester me for a night out in zouk on sat night, knowing very well i've church service on sat.. when i said no, his assertive response was 'your church dun end that late one, you can come at 11pm and we'll party all night'.. i was like 'hello, you have no right to direct me around. i know i wont go after church esp i've sun morning appointment' (trust me, i was on the verge of rebuking him with 'hey, i've more important things to do than you slacking in your life'!) then his ultimate reply 'wah so hard to get huh, i'll have to demote you to my part-time girlfriend liao'.. can you imagine my reaction in my mind!?! hello, i was, am and will never be in your 'girlfriends' list, and never wanted to be in!! as if i'd look forward to go out with you, ever! seriously, i was pissing mad! still, i kept my cool with a simple 'whatever'..

then, when i logged into my facebook, i was shocked and totally ANNOYED! he really took pride on his name being a 'J' cos the quiz indicated my future partner will be a 'J'! trust me, by this time, all my hot steam really burst out! this guy has absolutely no shame!!! immediately, i shot him down with 'seriously, u think too much.. fyi u cant pass my first 'criteria'.. lol stop dreaming' and guess what's his reply? he tried to play cool by brushing it off but how can i forget the 'desperate' phone call date episode?!? trust me, all i really want is to shut him OUT AND OFF my wall!! so i replied 'trust me, u cant even if u wanna.. *case closed*' i was so pissing hot and mad! why some people can be so shamelessly arrogant!!! of course, still trying to play cool, he replied in his huh?-whatever tone.. heck with him! i immediately deleted and blocked him from my facebook FOREVER!

i mean, please, i'm not an easily annoyed person.. even if you are totally no-brainer crapper, i can still put my patience to the test.. but please! dont ever try to impress me with your incorrigible silly arrogance! after living on earth for over 30yrs, have you not learnt anything about sensitivity? about humility? about knowing when and where to shut up and leave? gosh, he's totally hopeless!! *i'm so glad he'll be out of my life from now on!*

10 Jul 09 - As your soul prospers

after 1mth of no-cgm, it's really a joy to be back in cgm again.. what's better - i'm back to north cg!! :) well, i guess i can say i've tried my best in the west cg, but the return journey was really tiring so i'm now back to north cg, under a new cgl.. transition after transition, like the saying goes - the only constant is change. but hey i'm not complaining, now i've time to enjoy fellowship after cgm, instead of rushing off in order to be home by midnight..

you know, i really believe spiritual life is VERY IMPORTANT (not to forget, our spiritual walk is the ONLY thing you can bring into ETERNALITY with JESUS)! i mean, being through several cg transitions, under several leaders and even across 2 different zones, i can really feel the difference in the way of urshering God's Presence, sharing and praying.. each spiritual walk is really magnified during cellgroup meeting and it takes everyone's effort to contain God's Presence.. in DD zone, the leaders are very anointed in ministering.. yes, every cgm is a great ministering opportunity and you'll be in awe of how sensitive and anointed the leaders are. perhaps cos Pst Derek is american, his leaders also have a very good command of English language. in JS zone, the leaders are more 'singaporean' - the sharing is very localised with singlish but they are more active in outreaches. not to compare cos it really depends where God wants to put you.. in every cg, there's always a growth opportunity in loving and servicing people wholeheartedly.

i must say i'm still adapting to this new transition (afterall today's only the 2nd cgm in amk~) but i know it'll only be better! though i'll still miss the good old days of ministering cg, but i know i'll learn more through it all.. if God allows, one day i might be able to use these skills to lead.. but first, i know i've to pray for stronger spiritual walk in the Lord and wait upon the Lord's timing and blessings.

look beyond what i can forsee, beyond all comprehension; have a steadfast faith.. :)



3 John 1:2
Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers.

8 July 09 - Full moon + white flag

this must be the longest break i've ever taken on my blog.. trust me, i've super valid reasons for this absence..
1) no inspiration
2) too overwhelmed by alot of 'unexpected' activities..
- lesson which i ended up aching for 2 days
- work load to which i'm learning to raise my white flag
- research for future
- sudden invite to netball from which i confess i've to train better stamina for future games
and, not to forget my long anticipated trip to tw... this time i've found a great place to stay on my own!

see, so much hipe and so many activities in mere 2 weeks, it's no wonder i'm feeling stretched.. and a bit worn-out.. then i caught a glimpse of a near-full moon, then my bro sms me to look up, i tried to ignore these last night, but tonight.. cant help it.. my sister is really beautiful! and whenever i'm feeling down, she's always there to make my night peaceful and calm (and my bro too - for reminding me to look up).. then i was reminded of a very old teaching - "You may not be able to control the situation, but you can control how you respond to it"..

yes, i came to realise i'm becoming a rat in this rat race.. so much so that i've taken so much on my shoulders that they are aching and weighing me down.. it's about time i throw things out, a clean up.. *i see the white flag arising, out of the boney frame* .. my hands can only take as much as it's created to be..

meanwhile, people, pray for strength and patience for me.. i've a tough test to go through on monday.. really must pray, ya? luv ya!