菁是否分享過禱告的現實威力? (當然菁不是指照你自己貪戀的欲望成就在你身上)
每個禱告無論大小聲,慈愛的天父都聽到,所有的禱告都被祂看進眼裡..偉大的神渴望我們得喜悅,祂甚至比我們更積極地為我們祈禱和更積極地恩賜我們祝福..In fact, He is more ready to answer your prayers than you are to pray!!
菁近日有點不安於未來的可能性, 不安於自己的擇偶條件.. 也累於各種的活動, 累於各位的熱心介紹, 總之就是不安與累了.. 但那晚在LTW遇見'他'之後, 希望才復興起來..
更奇妙的是,剛才一位從未和菁聊天的同事竟然主動與菁分享了她2位好朋友的見證.. 她的分享給予菁十分的鼓勵和欣慰.. 她似乎是在井旁打水的利百加施恩請使命為以撒尋找妻子的僕人喝水解渴.. 使晦暗前景開啟了曙光, 讓黯淡的目光有了明亮的希望.. 神的安排真的再次讓菁驚訝,感恩主~!
午飯後回到桌位的菁拿起耳機.. 廣播電台的主持人-大衛正分享著如何等待,如何展望未來.. 人要有目標, "給自己一個承諾".. 人不怕老, "心態比年齡重要".. 多麼直接的祝福和預言! 更斷言了一切都在神的掌管之中! 大能的神立定義人的腳步(詩篇37:23)!!
詩篇 37:3-7
你當倚靠耶和華而行善，住在地上，以他的信實為糧；又要以耶和華為樂， 他就將你心裡所求的賜給你。 當將你的事交託耶和華，並倚靠他，他就必成全。他要使你的公義如光發出，使你的公平明如正午。你當默然倚靠耶和華，耐性等候他；不要因那道路通達的和那惡謀成就的心懷不平。
我住长江头，君住长江尾，日日思君不见君，共饮长江水。此水几时休，此恨何时已，只愿君心似我心，定不负相思意。
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
28 Jan 09 - Faith in Peace
Can I say it hurts me again when I read the news this morning, on this early morning of 3rd day of CNY?
I cant help wondering what is israeli government thinking.. Cant they hear the plead from the hearts of Gaza people? Cant they feel the pain of losing member(s) of their loved ones?? Even I, being a on-looking so far away in another part of the globe, feels the pain for the civilians in Gaza, for Dr Izzeldeen Abuelaish's family and many others.. They are human beings, mere people who happen to be living in the restrictive Gaza, trying to make life's ends meet.. I can imagine the shock and the devastation when they rushed into the room only to see the blown off heads of their little ones with bodies still sitting on the chairs.. Does doing homework in the room interfere the conflict between Hamas and Israel? Like I said before, no where and no one can be safe in the war. Even in the house of a prominent doctor who is deemed to be 'protected' by international relations, no one and no where is safe..
Yet I do have to admire Dr Izzeldeen's firm belief in peace, despite the terrible ordeal he is going through now. I don't know if I'd still have the faith and strength to go through the sudden tragic loss of my loved ones yet still believe in peace.. The very party who has the power to bring peace yet causes the pain and loss.. The Word of God says 'love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back' (Luke 6:35).. I pray for wisdom for the leaders in Israel and Hamas, pray for peace in Gaza and comfort for people in Gaza who have no where to hide from those gun fire..
Luke 6: 35-36
But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful.
I cant help wondering what is israeli government thinking.. Cant they hear the plead from the hearts of Gaza people? Cant they feel the pain of losing member(s) of their loved ones?? Even I, being a on-looking so far away in another part of the globe, feels the pain for the civilians in Gaza, for Dr Izzeldeen Abuelaish's family and many others.. They are human beings, mere people who happen to be living in the restrictive Gaza, trying to make life's ends meet.. I can imagine the shock and the devastation when they rushed into the room only to see the blown off heads of their little ones with bodies still sitting on the chairs.. Does doing homework in the room interfere the conflict between Hamas and Israel? Like I said before, no where and no one can be safe in the war. Even in the house of a prominent doctor who is deemed to be 'protected' by international relations, no one and no where is safe..
Yet I do have to admire Dr Izzeldeen's firm belief in peace, despite the terrible ordeal he is going through now. I don't know if I'd still have the faith and strength to go through the sudden tragic loss of my loved ones yet still believe in peace.. The very party who has the power to bring peace yet causes the pain and loss.. The Word of God says 'love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back' (Luke 6:35).. I pray for wisdom for the leaders in Israel and Hamas, pray for peace in Gaza and comfort for people in Gaza who have no where to hide from those gun fire..
Luke 6: 35-36
But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful.
Monday, January 26, 2009
26 Jan 09 - 避年的誘惑
去親戚朋友家拜年還可以, 大家一家團圓的氣氛很棒. . 但拿紅包就免了吧 (菁自認已老了), 菁也還沒資格發紅包, 這種被夾在中間的尷尬真的蠻擾人的.. 幾位單身的表姊出國過年去了.. 也許她們也意識到這夾在中間的不適, 所以出國玩樂.. 很好的主意吧? 是有點誘惑..
菁嚮往其中的玩樂但卻不想錯過一年一度的傳統聚會..
更何況單身的菁不用另安排時間與男友的家人拜年, 不用煩惱分配時間的問題 (其實單身真的蠻好的). . 只是到了傍晚, 妹妹們都去了她們男友的家見'未來家婆', 家裡顯得有點無聊.. 佳節特備電視節目也不怎麼能充實時間, 所以菁開始'胡思亂想'..
'避年'.. 真的需要嗎?
避了這年,還有明年; 避了明年, 還有後年.. 若這樣避下去, 將來的後代怎麼體會到團圓的溫馨可貴? 菁雖然不是個很傳統的女生, 但堅信每個人一定要了解和維護自己的'梗', 自己的傳統文化.. 一個沒有歷史的人怎麼能從中學習,展望未來? 下一代能向這一代學到甚麼, 能認同和保留家中的文化嗎? .. 避年是件好事嗎? ..
.. 呵呵, 媽媽剛剛說明了她不希望菁避年, 因為這30年來大家都習慣這團圓的感覺.. 若菁新年不在家裡, 老媽反應她會不習慣, 也不喜歡.. (看來老媽比菁傳統多了)
但誘惑總是誘惑... 菁會深思考慮...
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現在時間10pm..
菁嚮往其中的玩樂但卻不想錯過一年一度的傳統聚會..
更何況單身的菁不用另安排時間與男友的家人拜年, 不用煩惱分配時間的問題 (其實單身真的蠻好的). . 只是到了傍晚, 妹妹們都去了她們男友的家見'未來家婆', 家裡顯得有點無聊.. 佳節特備電視節目也不怎麼能充實時間, 所以菁開始'胡思亂想'..
'避年'.. 真的需要嗎?
避了這年,還有明年; 避了明年, 還有後年.. 若這樣避下去, 將來的後代怎麼體會到團圓的溫馨可貴? 菁雖然不是個很傳統的女生, 但堅信每個人一定要了解和維護自己的'梗', 自己的傳統文化.. 一個沒有歷史的人怎麼能從中學習,展望未來? 下一代能向這一代學到甚麼, 能認同和保留家中的文化嗎? .. 避年是件好事嗎? ..
.. 呵呵, 媽媽剛剛說明了她不希望菁避年, 因為這30年來大家都習慣這團圓的感覺.. 若菁新年不在家裡, 老媽反應她會不習慣, 也不喜歡.. (看來老媽比菁傳統多了)
但誘惑總是誘惑... 菁會深思考慮...
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現在時間10pm..
又是賭博, 又是Wii..
菁家裡熱鬧得很.. 男朋友來見'未來婆婆'了, 哈哈... 單身還是最好的~
25 Jan 09 - 菁看見'他'了
吃完團圓飯,菁和幾個好友約去'春到河畔'.. 這是菁第一次團圓夜沒在家守夜. 除了下著細雨的冷天氣使菁感到微感冒, 感覺還蠻新鮮的. 菁這趟外出真的是給足面子了..
走著走著,菁又回到Love The World了.. 今晚沒甚麼人群, 老闆們自彈自唱, 感覺比平日還溫馨.. 近日在眾人和朋友的介紹和壓力, 菁懷疑自己對男生是否太苛刻了, 甚至懷疑剩有的'可能性'.. 但今晚, 菁看見了'他'.. 到現在為止, 除了Bosco, 他可說是唯一個能符合菁所謂的條件... 人通常要有意象才能鎖住希望.. 今晚他把菁的希望復興了.. 原來真的有這類的男生生存著, 原來一切都是可行的. . 雖然是短短的交談, 但真的是獲益不少.. 好一位有信又穩重的男生, 好一位多才即謙卑的男生.. 菁真的被他吸引住了.. 他真的是菁的'理想伴侶'
大家別誤會.. 他已經結婚了. 菁甚至能感覺到他是多麼疼愛妻子, 多麼自豪妻子的好老公.. (他的妻子真的是得福了, 有福氣!) 雖然菁不能考慮這機會, 但他給予菁希望的曙光.. 天父知我心, 祂會安排的 :) 沒有甚麼是不可能的! 感恩主~
馬 太 福 音 7:11
你 們 雖 然 不 好 ， 尚 且 知 道 拿 好 東 西 給 兒 女 ， 何 況 你 們 在 天 上 的 父 ， 豈 不 更 把 好 東 西 給 求 他 的 人 麼 ？
走著走著,菁又回到Love The World了.. 今晚沒甚麼人群, 老闆們自彈自唱, 感覺比平日還溫馨.. 近日在眾人和朋友的介紹和壓力, 菁懷疑自己對男生是否太苛刻了, 甚至懷疑剩有的'可能性'.. 但今晚, 菁看見了'他'.. 到現在為止, 除了Bosco, 他可說是唯一個能符合菁所謂的條件... 人通常要有意象才能鎖住希望.. 今晚他把菁的希望復興了.. 原來真的有這類的男生生存著, 原來一切都是可行的. . 雖然是短短的交談, 但真的是獲益不少.. 好一位有信又穩重的男生, 好一位多才即謙卑的男生.. 菁真的被他吸引住了.. 他真的是菁的'理想伴侶'
大家別誤會.. 他已經結婚了. 菁甚至能感覺到他是多麼疼愛妻子, 多麼自豪妻子的好老公.. (他的妻子真的是得福了, 有福氣!) 雖然菁不能考慮這機會, 但他給予菁希望的曙光.. 天父知我心, 祂會安排的 :) 沒有甚麼是不可能的! 感恩主~
馬 太 福 音 7:11
你 們 雖 然 不 好 ， 尚 且 知 道 拿 好 東 西 給 兒 女 ， 何 況 你 們 在 天 上 的 父 ， 豈 不 更 把 好 東 西 給 求 他 的 人 麼 ？
Sunday, January 25, 2009
24 Jan 09 - 29th of last lunar month
is it very late to blog? :P it's nearly 1am! i had such a incredible long day, but i'm so happy.. cos it's so fulfilling~
.. i didnt go church service today (still feeling abit regretful) cos my 'queen of house' issued a decree that no one is go out today but to help in the final cleaning and preparation for reunion dinner..
my day started with early marketing (as usual) and went into non-stop of house chores.. in case u r asking 'J, i tot u cleaned already?', well... i guess it's in the blood.. when women of this family want to do something, we really go all out for it.. yes-we cleaned the house from inside out, but today we did our 'final touch' of cleaning outside in. from squeezing thru crowded markets (we even did market-hopping to get our ingredients) to clearing dust and mopping floor, we practically didnt rest, not even for lunch. imagine all the work that has to be done to present a totally CLEAN house and sweet-smelling dogs! (my 2 sis even had to walk and exercise with the dogs today..including cleaning them outside in) it was at 6.30pm that we finally had our rest..
had our dinner in the nearby hawker (pls dun expect us to cook after all the hard work).. we went straight for our annual 'see see walk walk' in the flower fairs and markets 辦年貨賞花市過小年 . I simply love the 29th day of the last lunar month~ though i know we have to slog in our final clean touch, it's so nice to be walking through the colourful flowers and plants (though i'm always the first to be bitten by mosquitoes!).. the whole market place is so alive even at this late hour, which they are usually closed by 9pm. (fyi, on 29th day of lunar mth ALL the shops all be OPENED THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT) .. i can still remember i had such great fun chatting with my primary mates in our neighbourhood at 3am on this night! this is the 'happening' night of the year - we can stay out so late without being interrogated. so happening.. :)
by the time we came back it's 12midnight... totally wore out but i'm still full of excitment for tomorrow's reunion dinner. not just bcos it's family bonding, but also bcos we have invited some foreign friends over to join our reunion dinner! imagine - 2 vietnamese, 1 indonesian + 5 singaporeans.. ahha.. my family is really very hospitable!! (maybe that's why i study hospitality? hehe) i remember my dad even once invited a couple of Japanese tourists over for homestay, even though they had only met on the street! (is this in my family's blood again? it's so inborn of us to befriend foreigners in streets - remember my good taiwanese friend??) i really cant wait to share the joy and excitment of Chinese reunion dinner with them!! what a cultural exchange!
it'll be another long day for me tmr.. got to prepare and help to cook, for our guests who are coming at 5pm.. gosh, i really like the last 3 days of lunar year - every year it's such a tedious excitment :)
.. i didnt go church service today (still feeling abit regretful) cos my 'queen of house' issued a decree that no one is go out today but to help in the final cleaning and preparation for reunion dinner..
my day started with early marketing (as usual) and went into non-stop of house chores.. in case u r asking 'J, i tot u cleaned already?', well... i guess it's in the blood.. when women of this family want to do something, we really go all out for it.. yes-we cleaned the house from inside out, but today we did our 'final touch' of cleaning outside in. from squeezing thru crowded markets (we even did market-hopping to get our ingredients) to clearing dust and mopping floor, we practically didnt rest, not even for lunch. imagine all the work that has to be done to present a totally CLEAN house and sweet-smelling dogs! (my 2 sis even had to walk and exercise with the dogs today..including cleaning them outside in) it was at 6.30pm that we finally had our rest..
had our dinner in the nearby hawker (pls dun expect us to cook after all the hard work).. we went straight for our annual 'see see walk walk' in the flower fairs and markets 辦年貨賞花市過小年 . I simply love the 29th day of the last lunar month~ though i know we have to slog in our final clean touch, it's so nice to be walking through the colourful flowers and plants (though i'm always the first to be bitten by mosquitoes!).. the whole market place is so alive even at this late hour, which they are usually closed by 9pm. (fyi, on 29th day of lunar mth ALL the shops all be OPENED THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT) .. i can still remember i had such great fun chatting with my primary mates in our neighbourhood at 3am on this night! this is the 'happening' night of the year - we can stay out so late without being interrogated. so happening.. :)
by the time we came back it's 12midnight... totally wore out but i'm still full of excitment for tomorrow's reunion dinner. not just bcos it's family bonding, but also bcos we have invited some foreign friends over to join our reunion dinner! imagine - 2 vietnamese, 1 indonesian + 5 singaporeans.. ahha.. my family is really very hospitable!! (maybe that's why i study hospitality? hehe) i remember my dad even once invited a couple of Japanese tourists over for homestay, even though they had only met on the street! (is this in my family's blood again? it's so inborn of us to befriend foreigners in streets - remember my good taiwanese friend??) i really cant wait to share the joy and excitment of Chinese reunion dinner with them!! what a cultural exchange!
it'll be another long day for me tmr.. got to prepare and help to cook, for our guests who are coming at 5pm.. gosh, i really like the last 3 days of lunar year - every year it's such a tedious excitment :)
Friday, January 23, 2009
22 Jan 09 - He remembers!
my cg had a really last minute change - to combine with the previous cg! it's really so last minute - i nearly had a panic attack when i saw this sms after my meeting.. it's already 6pm! (cg meeting is at 8pm).. from west area to north area! (think of the number of people i have to inform and they might be already on their way to West)
of course i dun mind going to north cgm (afterall it's in the NORTH), but i've never expected them to kick-start my bday celebration~my 1st round of 30th birthday celebration! i was caught so off-guarded that my birthday sharing was in a MESS.. full of stammering and stuttering.. but i'm so so so happy! it was then that i remembered this IS what i've wanted - to be prayed over by Valerie for my birthday... since my most depressive bday last yr, i wanted to be prayed over by Val for my bday.. of course, times flies and i became forgetful.. i really dun remember this 'want' of mine till He made it came true - right before my eyes! (I'm so thankful to God - He remembers!) and to make things even better - Val prayed exactly of my prayer list! it's either she's been asking ard for my prayer requests (which i dun even disclose all), she peeked into my prayer list, or it is the work of God Himself~ what more can i ask? God knows, remembers and makes this celebration so special to me, 'specially dedicated'! i'm just so in AWESOME AWE of His plan! Nothing is impossible to Him! :D
to add some spice, my good friends in the cg began to 'sell' me to this new friend.. who came for make-up cgm. the whole fellowship was abt me n my 'potential'.. i think they really scared him off cos he din dare to look at me.. hhaa.. i, on another hand, had to keep changing topic and divert their attention in hope to ease the 'fun' and tension in the air.. guess what? in the end, they invited him to our private CNY high-tea! my goodness, at the rate they are extending invitation to their friends, it looks like that high-tea is going to be J's 'selection meeting'! can u imagine how 'concerned' they are, bcos the 'masterminds' are leaving Singapore soon hence they cant wait to 'hook me up' to someone!?!? ... pls pray for me.. let no one feels awkward that day..
of course i dun mind going to north cgm (afterall it's in the NORTH), but i've never expected them to kick-start my bday celebration~my 1st round of 30th birthday celebration! i was caught so off-guarded that my birthday sharing was in a MESS.. full of stammering and stuttering.. but i'm so so so happy! it was then that i remembered this IS what i've wanted - to be prayed over by Valerie for my birthday... since my most depressive bday last yr, i wanted to be prayed over by Val for my bday.. of course, times flies and i became forgetful.. i really dun remember this 'want' of mine till He made it came true - right before my eyes! (I'm so thankful to God - He remembers!) and to make things even better - Val prayed exactly of my prayer list! it's either she's been asking ard for my prayer requests (which i dun even disclose all), she peeked into my prayer list, or it is the work of God Himself~ what more can i ask? God knows, remembers and makes this celebration so special to me, 'specially dedicated'! i'm just so in AWESOME AWE of His plan! Nothing is impossible to Him! :D
to add some spice, my good friends in the cg began to 'sell' me to this new friend.. who came for make-up cgm. the whole fellowship was abt me n my 'potential'.. i think they really scared him off cos he din dare to look at me.. hhaa.. i, on another hand, had to keep changing topic and divert their attention in hope to ease the 'fun' and tension in the air.. guess what? in the end, they invited him to our private CNY high-tea! my goodness, at the rate they are extending invitation to their friends, it looks like that high-tea is going to be J's 'selection meeting'! can u imagine how 'concerned' they are, bcos the 'masterminds' are leaving Singapore soon hence they cant wait to 'hook me up' to someone!?!? ... pls pray for me.. let no one feels awkward that day..
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
21 Jan 09 - why blog?
i have been wondering on why people blog..
my 'motivation' to blog was sparked off by my therapist.. and for bosco.. then i moved on.. blog to update my concerned friends on my progress and thoughts (in case i become real nuts, at least they know) .. cos most of my friends are whom i cant meet / chat often + my gers are always flying around. hence blogging is 'my way' of keeping in contact with them. they can read it when they are free.. somehow it kinda created more spice to 'enhance' our friendship, so much so that they actually bother to call and nag at me! .. not to forget my good brothers who are my 'faithful' readers cos i'm too lazy to repeat my story to their 'how's life' question, i practically 'force' them to read my blog.. hahaa
((... sounds like i've been forcing to everyone to read my blog...hehee. well, at least i keep updating - be it sad, happy, religious or plain complaints.. and i tried to keep my blog to my known friends.. but nothing is perfect..somehow, i dunno why i left its link on my FB and nearly gotten myself into a great mess.. nevertheless, i hope it helps you who reads in one way or another.. ))
..perhaps that's why i can keep blogging - cos i type and i get feedback from everywhere..
some people can blog and share for a period but it becomes a white space elephant over time.. (hmm, i also wonder if i'm too opinionated?) somehow i just cant believe anyone can live through his/her day without having any comments or reflections on what happened to their day (what's brain for!? *amaze*).. laziness is not an excuse.. u can skip few days of blogging, but i suppose one will still need an outlet to vent all those thoughts out one day, a space that solely belongs to you and you only..
unless u r Super Puma or Chinook .. high capacity to contain all inside..
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this is INTERESTING!
Young single Chinese are advertising on the internet for temporary partners they can take home over Chinese New Year to please their parents. (http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/asia-pacific/7842017.stm)
*i dun mind earning S$510 extra bucks per day by knowing more friends~* ahahaa
my 'motivation' to blog was sparked off by my therapist.. and for bosco.. then i moved on.. blog to update my concerned friends on my progress and thoughts (in case i become real nuts, at least they know) .. cos most of my friends are whom i cant meet / chat often + my gers are always flying around. hence blogging is 'my way' of keeping in contact with them. they can read it when they are free.. somehow it kinda created more spice to 'enhance' our friendship, so much so that they actually bother to call and nag at me! .. not to forget my good brothers who are my 'faithful' readers cos i'm too lazy to repeat my story to their 'how's life' question, i practically 'force' them to read my blog.. hahaa
((... sounds like i've been forcing to everyone to read my blog...hehee. well, at least i keep updating - be it sad, happy, religious or plain complaints.. and i tried to keep my blog to my known friends.. but nothing is perfect..somehow, i dunno why i left its link on my FB and nearly gotten myself into a great mess.. nevertheless, i hope it helps you who reads in one way or another.. ))
..perhaps that's why i can keep blogging - cos i type and i get feedback from everywhere..
some people can blog and share for a period but it becomes a white space elephant over time.. (hmm, i also wonder if i'm too opinionated?) somehow i just cant believe anyone can live through his/her day without having any comments or reflections on what happened to their day (what's brain for!? *amaze*).. laziness is not an excuse.. u can skip few days of blogging, but i suppose one will still need an outlet to vent all those thoughts out one day, a space that solely belongs to you and you only..
unless u r Super Puma or Chinook .. high capacity to contain all inside..
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this is INTERESTING!
Young single Chinese are advertising on the internet for temporary partners they can take home over Chinese New Year to please their parents. (http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/asia-pacific/7842017.stm)
*i dun mind earning S$510 extra bucks per day by knowing more friends~* ahahaa
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
20 Jan 09 - 談婚論嫁
今天心情不佳 (是早期更年的預兆嗎?)
拉了幾位好友去來吃飯, 但還是不能把那灰暗的心情散去.. 無奈.. 只好找好老朋友聊天..
就這樣哈拉了大約40分鐘的長途電話 (算是昂貴的消遣嗎?) ;
人在無聊時真的是廢話連篇, 語無倫次, 甚至還把婚姻大事, 談婚論嫁當作消遣話題...
我們倆人還真的是很'不正經'地嘩啦著.. 甚麼思念,甚麼協議書都瞎掰成真的似的, 真的是耍寶..
(慶, 那你真的得通過菁寶貝的那一關才行喔.. 一定要得到菁'現任男友'的同意與祝福, 菁才會慎重考慮喔!)
聊著聊著,菁真的很慶幸還能和這位'老先生'談天.. 真的是友情可貴啊!
難以想像菁已經認識他近14年了! 真的不認老也不行ㄚ! 呵呵..
也許菁該是時候請假休息了..
自從從台灣回來以後, 菁真的瞎忙著些不知甚麼的事情.. 也漸漸莫名其妙地累了..
近日菁又開始盼望出國旅遊的機會.. (可是菁真的不想回台灣啦! 更何況台灣現在有寒流, 菁會凍死在異鄉的啦)
原本想去美國(此時的美國應該很興奮- Barack Obama的就職典禮) 或英國找朋友慶祝生日, 但最終還是決定留在新加坡的安全小屋裡...
還有哪裡可以讓菁歇歇腳, 放下所有的負擔? 最好還能讓菁好好地享受大自然..
不期待遙遠的旅程, 只求平靜的休息..
不需要豪華之旅, 只求充實的渡假..
拉了幾位好友去來吃飯, 但還是不能把那灰暗的心情散去.. 無奈.. 只好找好老朋友聊天..
就這樣哈拉了大約40分鐘的長途電話 (算是昂貴的消遣嗎?) ;
人在無聊時真的是廢話連篇, 語無倫次, 甚至還把婚姻大事, 談婚論嫁當作消遣話題...
我們倆人還真的是很'不正經'地嘩啦著.. 甚麼思念,甚麼協議書都瞎掰成真的似的, 真的是耍寶..
(慶, 那你真的得通過菁寶貝的那一關才行喔.. 一定要得到菁'現任男友'的同意與祝福, 菁才會慎重考慮喔!)
聊著聊著,菁真的很慶幸還能和這位'老先生'談天.. 真的是友情可貴啊!
難以想像菁已經認識他近14年了! 真的不認老也不行ㄚ! 呵呵..
也許菁該是時候請假休息了..
自從從台灣回來以後, 菁真的瞎忙著些不知甚麼的事情.. 也漸漸莫名其妙地累了..
近日菁又開始盼望出國旅遊的機會.. (可是菁真的不想回台灣啦! 更何況台灣現在有寒流, 菁會凍死在異鄉的啦)
原本想去美國(此時的美國應該很興奮- Barack Obama的就職典禮) 或英國找朋友慶祝生日, 但最終還是決定留在新加坡的安全小屋裡...
還有哪裡可以讓菁歇歇腳, 放下所有的負擔? 最好還能讓菁好好地享受大自然..
不期待遙遠的旅程, 只求平靜的休息..
不需要豪華之旅, 只求充實的渡假..
Monday, January 19, 2009
19 Jan 09 - Suddenly!!
i’m so STRESSED!! Happy, elated, ecstatic + stressed, traumatized, of great disturbance!
~ this news sure brings great joy and ‘heaviness’ on me ~o~
cheryl dropped her big red bomb! I know she’s been engaged since last yr but this sudden news is sure weighing me down.. somehow.. What a sudden realization that I’m not getting younger.. dun ask me why but I suddenly feel so stress! I mean, Alvin is much older hence Jen’s wedding is expectedly accepted; but Cheryl?? Don is as young as her! My goodness!! I’m freaking myself out now..
ok, I know what u people will say ‘J, then go n find a bf’..
1) ‘WAIT’..
what a very vivid answer to my prayers even though I was quite attracted to someone then..
2) it's not as easy as shopping for groceries..
the ‘chemistry’ has to be mutually right. Let alone my ‘hard-to-please’ requirements as my checklist. (I’m still adhering to my list!) I’m a very focused person, hahaa :P
3) i’m kinda tired of ‘looking around'..
if he’s for me and around me, let him make himself known. I’m a firm believer of ‘guys should take the initiative’, remember?
now that my 2 very good friends (Alec and Cheryl) have dropped their bombs.. I guess I shld have and will get used to it.. afterall, I’m indeed not getting younger.. hahaa.. what a strong reminder.. :S
Congratulations! Mr and Mrs Alec Ngo!!
Congratulations! Mr and Mrs Don Chng!
Sunday, January 18, 2009
18 Jan 09 - typical Aquarius, typical Sheep
all's cleaned and decorated.. all's ready for CNY..
after slogging for last month, i'm finally able to laze in my room again.. good food, good music and great breeze.. wat more can i ask.. esp my 2 sis went double-dating to science ctr (dun ask me why there..).. such peace and tranquility at home.. :P
for the past nights i was at LTW - one of the coolest places these days.. my good friends from Amplify are there, and i even brought my cg members past nights.. what a hybrid place to share our Common Love and to dispel denominational misunderstandings (if any) of one another. afterall, WE ALL WORSHIP THE SAME GOD, AS PARTS OF THE SAME BODY OF CHRIST! I'm so happy to be there - i miss my AMP friends~ Amplify yeah!!! in fact, when they announced who are in the house (as norm) last night, i practically cheered for most of the groups cos i'm part of them! CHC, Christian Singles, Amplify~ what a 'homely' place for me.. gosh, LTW is really strong competitor against Timbre in my list of fav hangout places..
(haaa.. i just received a sms - someone tot i own LTW cos i was so sociable with most people in the pub last night! haa.. ) see, i'm really interactive, PR and versatile when situation arises!!
...been asking ard and evaluating what's my friends' impression of J.. how has J fared for past yr, esp her people management.. since CNY is coming so i decided to ve some fun - look for some characteristics of J who is being typical Aquarius, typical Sheep, typical... (ok, i know it's not for Christians to believe in those but hey it's just for fun~)
Aquarius (The Water Carrier) (fixed, air, universal): Keyword: "I know".
The Aquarius person is unconventional, detached, intellectual, objective, individualistic, inventive, tolerant, unique, rebellious, sophisticated, future-oriented, friendship-oriented, humanitarian, cause-oriented, believes in groups and society, attractive and progressive. They can also sometimes be unpredictable, dogmatic, over-permissive, aloof, eccentric and elitist. Suitable occupations are where the progressive mental qualities can be developed, preferable in a group; such as, photographer, writer, broadcastor, publisher, social worker, scientist, and the electronics, aviation, and computer industries. In medical astrology Aquarius governs the circulatory system and the ankles. In astrology Aquarius is ruled by the planets Saturn and Uranus. Thesun sign dates for Aquarius are 21 Jan - 19 Feb. The air form of Aquarius is a cold winter night.
Air Signs-- Gemini, Libra, and Aquarius-- Air represents the intellect and one's ability to reason and communicate. The Air signs are associated with thought, perspective, hastiness, and communication. People with air in their astrological compositions are intellectual, objective, lively, idealistic and articulate. In combination with the other elements, air feels that water will obscure it, earth will suffocate it, but fire will inspire and uplift it. It is the element of agility and beauty.
Fixed signs Taurus, Leo, Scorpio and Aquarius are associated with focus, powerful concentration, individuality and determination. A person with a lot of Fixed qualities in their make up will be stable, penetrating, conservative, solid, purposeful, persevering, loyal and a little inflexible in their outlook .
Transpersonal Signs - Sagittarius, Capricorn, Aquarius, Pisces - are principally aware of and concerned with humanity; they are respectively associated with: transcendence, questioning existence, executiveship, philosophy, travel, culture; equality, technology, democracy; art, sometimes psychic abilities (Pisces, possibly Aquarius), and universal love.
未 Sheep (Yin, 4th Trine, Fixed Element Fire)
The Sheep person is righteous, sincere, sympathetic, mild-mannered, shy, artistic, creative, gentle, compassionate, understanding, mothering, determined, peaceful, generous, seeks security. They can also sometimes be moody, indecisive, over-passive, worrier, pessimistic, over-sensitive, complainer. The Sheep person relies on their good nature and sensitivity to persuade others to meet their needs and use subtle, indirect methods and persistence to achieve them. Good at artistic and creative pursuits. The month of the Sheep is Jul 7 - Aug 7, and the hours of the Sheep are 1pm - 3pm.
The 4th trine consists of the Rabbit, Sheep and Pig. The quest for these three signs is the aesthetic and beautiful in life. Their calm nature gives them great leadership abilities. They are artistic, refined, intuitive, and well-mannered. These souls love the preliminaries in love, and are fine artists in their lovemaking. The Rabbit, Sheep and Pig have been bestowed with calmer natures than the other 9 signs. These three are compassionately aware, yet detached and resigned to their condition. They seek beauty and a sensitive lover. They are caring, unique, self-sacrificing, obliging, sensible, creative, empathetic, tactful, and prudent. They can also be naive, pedantic, insecure, cunning, indecisive, and pessimistic.
Fire: The fire person has leadership qualities, and is decisive, self confident, positive and assertive. They are motivators, doers, and pioneers, open to new ideas and are creative and original. They are capable of being dynamic and inspiring others. However they can also be aggressive, impatient, domineering, forceful, impulsive and too-outspoken. The direction associated with Fire is South, and the season is summer, which makes it the fixed element for the animal signs Snake, Horse and Sheep.
.. interesting? how much of these is really me? one thing that's pretty 'true' (at least for me), Gemini, Libra, and Aquarius always have been attracted to one another.. for 'obvious' reason.
after slogging for last month, i'm finally able to laze in my room again.. good food, good music and great breeze.. wat more can i ask.. esp my 2 sis went double-dating to science ctr (dun ask me why there..).. such peace and tranquility at home.. :P
for the past nights i was at LTW - one of the coolest places these days.. my good friends from Amplify are there, and i even brought my cg members past nights.. what a hybrid place to share our Common Love and to dispel denominational misunderstandings (if any) of one another. afterall, WE ALL WORSHIP THE SAME GOD, AS PARTS OF THE SAME BODY OF CHRIST! I'm so happy to be there - i miss my AMP friends~ Amplify yeah!!! in fact, when they announced who are in the house (as norm) last night, i practically cheered for most of the groups cos i'm part of them! CHC, Christian Singles, Amplify~ what a 'homely' place for me.. gosh, LTW is really strong competitor against Timbre in my list of fav hangout places..
(haaa.. i just received a sms - someone tot i own LTW cos i was so sociable with most people in the pub last night! haa.. ) see, i'm really interactive, PR and versatile when situation arises!!
...been asking ard and evaluating what's my friends' impression of J.. how has J fared for past yr, esp her people management.. since CNY is coming so i decided to ve some fun - look for some characteristics of J who is being typical Aquarius, typical Sheep, typical... (ok, i know it's not for Christians to believe in those but hey it's just for fun~)
Aquarius (The Water Carrier) (fixed, air, universal): Keyword: "I know".
The Aquarius person is unconventional, detached, intellectual, objective, individualistic, inventive, tolerant, unique, rebellious, sophisticated, future-oriented, friendship-oriented, humanitarian, cause-oriented, believes in groups and society, attractive and progressive. They can also sometimes be unpredictable, dogmatic, over-permissive, aloof, eccentric and elitist. Suitable occupations are where the progressive mental qualities can be developed, preferable in a group; such as, photographer, writer, broadcastor, publisher, social worker, scientist, and the electronics, aviation, and computer industries. In medical astrology Aquarius governs the circulatory system and the ankles. In astrology Aquarius is ruled by the planets Saturn and Uranus. Thesun sign dates for Aquarius are 21 Jan - 19 Feb. The air form of Aquarius is a cold winter night.
Air Signs-- Gemini, Libra, and Aquarius-- Air represents the intellect and one's ability to reason and communicate. The Air signs are associated with thought, perspective, hastiness, and communication. People with air in their astrological compositions are intellectual, objective, lively, idealistic and articulate. In combination with the other elements, air feels that water will obscure it, earth will suffocate it, but fire will inspire and uplift it. It is the element of agility and beauty.
Fixed signs Taurus, Leo, Scorpio and Aquarius are associated with focus, powerful concentration, individuality and determination. A person with a lot of Fixed qualities in their make up will be stable, penetrating, conservative, solid, purposeful, persevering, loyal and a little inflexible in their outlook .
Transpersonal Signs - Sagittarius, Capricorn, Aquarius, Pisces - are principally aware of and concerned with humanity; they are respectively associated with: transcendence, questioning existence, executiveship, philosophy, travel, culture; equality, technology, democracy; art, sometimes psychic abilities (Pisces, possibly Aquarius), and universal love.
未 Sheep (Yin, 4th Trine, Fixed Element Fire)
The Sheep person is righteous, sincere, sympathetic, mild-mannered, shy, artistic, creative, gentle, compassionate, understanding, mothering, determined, peaceful, generous, seeks security. They can also sometimes be moody, indecisive, over-passive, worrier, pessimistic, over-sensitive, complainer. The Sheep person relies on their good nature and sensitivity to persuade others to meet their needs and use subtle, indirect methods and persistence to achieve them. Good at artistic and creative pursuits. The month of the Sheep is Jul 7 - Aug 7, and the hours of the Sheep are 1pm - 3pm.
The 4th trine consists of the Rabbit, Sheep and Pig. The quest for these three signs is the aesthetic and beautiful in life. Their calm nature gives them great leadership abilities. They are artistic, refined, intuitive, and well-mannered. These souls love the preliminaries in love, and are fine artists in their lovemaking. The Rabbit, Sheep and Pig have been bestowed with calmer natures than the other 9 signs. These three are compassionately aware, yet detached and resigned to their condition. They seek beauty and a sensitive lover. They are caring, unique, self-sacrificing, obliging, sensible, creative, empathetic, tactful, and prudent. They can also be naive, pedantic, insecure, cunning, indecisive, and pessimistic.
Fire: The fire person has leadership qualities, and is decisive, self confident, positive and assertive. They are motivators, doers, and pioneers, open to new ideas and are creative and original. They are capable of being dynamic and inspiring others. However they can also be aggressive, impatient, domineering, forceful, impulsive and too-outspoken. The direction associated with Fire is South, and the season is summer, which makes it the fixed element for the animal signs Snake, Horse and Sheep.
.. interesting? how much of these is really me? one thing that's pretty 'true' (at least for me), Gemini, Libra, and Aquarius always have been attracted to one another.. for 'obvious' reason.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
15 Jan 09 - Hunter Spirit
for whole day i was 'nagged at' by my good friends (thankfully i dun really have a lot of friends in that category..)... u know who u r.. ok ok, my dears, i'll give it some thoughts ok? ok, enough, zip! i'm going to reflect now. u can feedback by leaving ur comments later..
background:
immediately after i posted the entry last night, someone braced his courage to ask me out on a date.. if i'm a believer in 'signs', i might just think he is the 'answer' with that kind of right timing after that melancholy blog entry.. in fact he said he really prayed hard on this for past days (my goodness, am i that fierce and demanding that pple has to pray before asking me out?!?!) .. dont get me wrong, he's not a bad guy.. in fact, he's quite a 'secured' guy to be with - stable, kind and matured.. and yes, he's older than me (i know some of u are praying for me on this age thingy)..
ok, i am flattered by his initiative and openness, but .. i dun feel the chemistry he felt.. hence, having direct and open personality, i hope i've clarified my stand as a friend.. i know i can be rather tactfully direct when it comes to such requests.. (is it that's why pple are 'scare of' asking me out and that they have to 'pray hard' over it?..sigh..)
reflection:
trust me, i'm not a demanding lady.. and though J is 'approachable' and 'interactive', J dun wan to commit or plant false hopes around either.. he is earnestly looking for a partner; i'm earnestly looking for a friend. it's not that i dont want a partner, but .. if he's for me and is willing to take care of me, he will be determined to pass thru the gate of Friendship first.. make sense?
i'm not closing my doors /options.. i like and i admire him for his initiative (ie. the 'hunter' spirit) but... i have to be true to myself, right? anyway, u can still keep praying if ur desire to 'sell me away' is strong.. maybe miracles may just happen (though i'm skeptical in this area).. maybe perhaps perhaps perhaps..
but do keep doing what is good - PRAY! :) haha...
Thanks for your prayers~!
10句值得深思的話
1) 沒有100分的另一半, 只有50分的兩個人
2) 付出真心才會得到真心, 卻也可能傷得徹底; 保持距離就能保護自己, 卻也註定永遠寂寞
3) 通常願意留下來跟你爭吵的人才是真正愛你的人
4) 有時候不是對方不在乎你, 而是你把對方看得太重
5) 冷漠有時候並不是無情, 只是一種避免被傷害的工具
6) 如果我們之間有1000步的距離, 你只要垮出第一步, 我就會朝你的方向走其餘的999步
7) 為你的難過而快樂的是敵人, 為你的快樂而快樂的是朋友, 為你的難過而難過的就是那些該放進心裡的人
8) Believe 中間也藏了一個lie
9) 真正的好朋友並不是在一起就有聊不完的話題, 而是在一起就算不說話也不會感到尷尬
10) 朋友就是被你看透了, 還是喜歡你的人
background:
immediately after i posted the entry last night, someone braced his courage to ask me out on a date.. if i'm a believer in 'signs', i might just think he is the 'answer' with that kind of right timing after that melancholy blog entry.. in fact he said he really prayed hard on this for past days (my goodness, am i that fierce and demanding that pple has to pray before asking me out?!?!) .. dont get me wrong, he's not a bad guy.. in fact, he's quite a 'secured' guy to be with - stable, kind and matured.. and yes, he's older than me (i know some of u are praying for me on this age thingy)..
ok, i am flattered by his initiative and openness, but .. i dun feel the chemistry he felt.. hence, having direct and open personality, i hope i've clarified my stand as a friend.. i know i can be rather tactfully direct when it comes to such requests.. (is it that's why pple are 'scare of' asking me out and that they have to 'pray hard' over it?..sigh..)
reflection:
trust me, i'm not a demanding lady.. and though J is 'approachable' and 'interactive', J dun wan to commit or plant false hopes around either.. he is earnestly looking for a partner; i'm earnestly looking for a friend. it's not that i dont want a partner, but .. if he's for me and is willing to take care of me, he will be determined to pass thru the gate of Friendship first.. make sense?
i'm not closing my doors /options.. i like and i admire him for his initiative (ie. the 'hunter' spirit) but... i have to be true to myself, right? anyway, u can still keep praying if ur desire to 'sell me away' is strong.. maybe miracles may just happen (though i'm skeptical in this area).. maybe perhaps perhaps perhaps..
but do keep doing what is good - PRAY! :) haha...
Thanks for your prayers~!
10句值得深思的話
1) 沒有100分的另一半, 只有50分的兩個人
2) 付出真心才會得到真心, 卻也可能傷得徹底; 保持距離就能保護自己, 卻也註定永遠寂寞
3) 通常願意留下來跟你爭吵的人才是真正愛你的人
4) 有時候不是對方不在乎你, 而是你把對方看得太重
5) 冷漠有時候並不是無情, 只是一種避免被傷害的工具
6) 如果我們之間有1000步的距離, 你只要垮出第一步, 我就會朝你的方向走其餘的999步
7) 為你的難過而快樂的是敵人, 為你的快樂而快樂的是朋友, 為你的難過而難過的就是那些該放進心裡的人
8) Believe 中間也藏了一個lie
9) 真正的好朋友並不是在一起就有聊不完的話題, 而是在一起就算不說話也不會感到尷尬
10) 朋友就是被你看透了, 還是喜歡你的人
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
14 Jan 09 - Red Cliff 2
just came back fr a remarkably good show - red cliff 2 (worth very bit of the money!).. finally managed to find time and a couple of good friends to watch.. good thing i didn't watch it with the other people... cos i really feel so so much like crying after the show.. maybe i'm in those melancholy periods.. maybe the war scenes really get into me (though i really LOVE the strategies of war - what a challenge of wits! such a war of gentlemen and grace!! what great minds and love!!).. maybe i'm just.. i feel like crying.. pls dun ask me why.. i just feel like crying..
the show left 2 scenes in my mind..
1) the blood shedding war zone (despite the fact i really love their strategies of position, attack and defend.. talk abt waiting on God! what great wisdom!!)
2) when lady qiao fell down from the tower, protecting the baby with all her being, and lord zhou (Tony Leung is SO extremely gallant and charismatic!!) dashed with all his might to catch and human-cushion her fall
- 1) the war scenes - is it what's it's like in Gaza and other war zones now? i mean, the ancient times fought by code of war (such pride and gentlemen~) but.. now?? fight with pride - yes, even with arrogance; but gentlemenly code? who really cares for the women and children in this modern day war? who take heed of their pleads when missiles are fired?? at least the soldiers know the 'cause of their fight', but how about the civilians whose house and livihood are 'just so unfortunate' to be in the line of war???... my heart aches.. i know i'm sound exaggerating but it's true - i really feel like crying when i think of these..
- 2) the fall - ok, let's put the charisma and looks of tony leung aside (he's is really so OMG!!).. the love that lady qiao has for her husband and his people.. despite her pregnancy, she stepped out in such brave decision to fulfil the dream of her husband.. (if u cannot understand why is she so silly to risk her life to attend to lord cao, pls try to FEEL the love within!) what a woman of great love for her family and her people!! the moment he dashed through all things in hope to catch her fall, the strong love and trust they share is so so so so making me envious~! i mean, which woman wouldnt want that?! to be caught by the arms (let alone human-cushioning!) of he who treasures you so much! it's like 'even if i were to die in ur arms, i'm willing' ... another cry factor for me..
... i read what doraemon wrote to me this morning.. my prince charming..
honestly, i dunno where, who and how is he going to reveal himself.. or is there ever 'my' prince charming.. not bcos my requirements are high, but i really dont know His timing! where are those strong arms of support for J? or, he has chosen to belong to someone else (God gives people free-will to choose, remember??)
very often, my reply to all these questions will be of same consolatory note - "no point fretting, what will be will be".. but when i'm in this pensive and contemplative mood, it's kinda hard to push it aside.. who will he be? someone around or to come? or.. will he return? (ok, people, i'm just wondering ok? not exactly pinning hope on that!) or.. will there ever another? the Bible says hope deferred makes the heart sick.. is my heart getting sick?
daddy always tell me 'dun worry J, you'll surely have someone who really treasure and love you'.. but daddy, i really dont know if there'll be another.. will there ever be a man of great love, grace and strong faith to accept my past (fyi someone thought he could and he was but ... ).. i know i shldnt carry past emotional burdens to a new one, and trust me - i'm not and i wont (it wont be fair to the new partner).. but what if he picked MY burdens up for himself?? ... where is my tree of life??
Prov 13:12
Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.
the show left 2 scenes in my mind..
1) the blood shedding war zone (despite the fact i really love their strategies of position, attack and defend.. talk abt waiting on God! what great wisdom!!)
2) when lady qiao fell down from the tower, protecting the baby with all her being, and lord zhou (Tony Leung is SO extremely gallant and charismatic!!) dashed with all his might to catch and human-cushion her fall
- 1) the war scenes - is it what's it's like in Gaza and other war zones now? i mean, the ancient times fought by code of war (such pride and gentlemen~) but.. now?? fight with pride - yes, even with arrogance; but gentlemenly code? who really cares for the women and children in this modern day war? who take heed of their pleads when missiles are fired?? at least the soldiers know the 'cause of their fight', but how about the civilians whose house and livihood are 'just so unfortunate' to be in the line of war???... my heart aches.. i know i'm sound exaggerating but it's true - i really feel like crying when i think of these..
- 2) the fall - ok, let's put the charisma and looks of tony leung aside (he's is really so OMG!!).. the love that lady qiao has for her husband and his people.. despite her pregnancy, she stepped out in such brave decision to fulfil the dream of her husband.. (if u cannot understand why is she so silly to risk her life to attend to lord cao, pls try to FEEL the love within!) what a woman of great love for her family and her people!! the moment he dashed through all things in hope to catch her fall, the strong love and trust they share is so so so so making me envious~! i mean, which woman wouldnt want that?! to be caught by the arms (let alone human-cushioning!) of he who treasures you so much! it's like 'even if i were to die in ur arms, i'm willing' ... another cry factor for me..
... i read what doraemon wrote to me this morning.. my prince charming..
honestly, i dunno where, who and how is he going to reveal himself.. or is there ever 'my' prince charming.. not bcos my requirements are high, but i really dont know His timing! where are those strong arms of support for J? or, he has chosen to belong to someone else (God gives people free-will to choose, remember??)
very often, my reply to all these questions will be of same consolatory note - "no point fretting, what will be will be".. but when i'm in this pensive and contemplative mood, it's kinda hard to push it aside.. who will he be? someone around or to come? or.. will he return? (ok, people, i'm just wondering ok? not exactly pinning hope on that!) or.. will there ever another? the Bible says hope deferred makes the heart sick.. is my heart getting sick?
daddy always tell me 'dun worry J, you'll surely have someone who really treasure and love you'.. but daddy, i really dont know if there'll be another.. will there ever be a man of great love, grace and strong faith to accept my past (fyi someone thought he could and he was but ... ).. i know i shldnt carry past emotional burdens to a new one, and trust me - i'm not and i wont (it wont be fair to the new partner).. but what if he picked MY burdens up for himself?? ... where is my tree of life??
Prov 13:12
Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
13 Jan 09 - Caretaker Wanted
I cant believe it, what a GREAT job offer~! In the midst of all job market insecurity, there’s actually such a freaking incredible and totally heavenly position!
Caretaker Wanted!
Location: Hamilton Island
Working hours: 12hrs per month
Remuneration: A$150,000 for 6-months
Fringe benefits: Rent-free 3-room villa with pool
Job Scope:
1) Swim, snorkel, dive and sail
2) Feeding of fish
3) Collecting of island’s mail
4) Actively promote island life on internet
Commence Date: 1 July 09
Qualifications: NIL
I tell you, if I’m living in Australia or able to get my employment pass by next week, I’d jump and even dive right in for this position!! Even though it’s only a period of 6-mths, but hey, it’s 6-mth of heavenly peace! Imagine all day of blogging, internet postings and under-water video to promote the place where you live, not to mention you are handsomely paid for it! (how come STB dun come up with this idea?!) Living with the nature’s wonders (and of course, some threats) it is such a JOY! GREAT GREAT GREAT BLESSING! Awesome Awesome Awesome! *dreaming away… little mermaid... *
Argh!! This is definitely not helping me in my current ‘job satisfaction’ rating (~_~)lll haaha..
Caretaker Wanted!
Location: Hamilton Island
Working hours: 12hrs per month
Remuneration: A$150,000 for 6-months
Fringe benefits: Rent-free 3-room villa with pool
Job Scope:
1) Swim, snorkel, dive and sail
2) Feeding of fish
3) Collecting of island’s mail
4) Actively promote island life on internet
Commence Date: 1 July 09
Qualifications: NIL
I tell you, if I’m living in Australia or able to get my employment pass by next week, I’d jump and even dive right in for this position!! Even though it’s only a period of 6-mths, but hey, it’s 6-mth of heavenly peace! Imagine all day of blogging, internet postings and under-water video to promote the place where you live, not to mention you are handsomely paid for it! (how come STB dun come up with this idea?!) Living with the nature’s wonders (and of course, some threats) it is such a JOY! GREAT GREAT GREAT BLESSING! Awesome Awesome Awesome! *dreaming away… little mermaid... *
Argh!! This is definitely not helping me in my current ‘job satisfaction’ rating (~_~)lll haaha..
Sunday, January 11, 2009
11 Jan 09 - 2nd round of Bday celebration
finally it's over.. my tedious spring cleaning is OVER! from cleaning of the rooms n even toilets to decorating the house for CNY .. it's sure hard work! .. finally i can now look forward for my 'pampering + grooming' sessions!!
Awesome start today with Rev John Bevere
It was AWESOME~~! Totally awesome! It's like sitting with my seat-belt on a totally awesome ride! ok i know i may be bias (cos i really like him!) but he's really totally humourous + sensitive + annointed! and man, he speaks really fast, even at quoting of verses (he really knows the Bible so so well - word for word!) hence, it's really like sitting thru a exciting speed ride.. totally enriching n awesome awesome! i really urge u people to read his book - he WILL change ur life values about honoring people and much more, for the better of you!
attending sun service is so different from sat service.. yes, though both days we ve to be in church 'early' for pre-service prayer meetings.. but the feeling and atmosphere is so unlike. on Sun, there're more people (perhaps cos i kept bumping into a lot of my friends - be they from CHC or FCBC).. waiting at the same Foyer 3 felt so different, so full of 'surprises'
the next exciting thing is BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION WITH N277! it's kinda inpromptu thing to discuss over lunch.. they are getting me all excited with their proposals n suggestions~ (guess who has to do the planning n coordinating work?) cos this yr is a special yr for J - grand entrance into the 3!, 'victory' celebration overwhat happened, and also act as an excuse to gather everyone before some of them fly to Australia and Taiwan for their long-term posting, not to forget all the other members who are also Feb kids (ie a combined bday celebration!).. best of all, it's CNY - we can have our annual '魚生' ! I'm so excited and honoured to be the 'official organiser'! even though i've planned my first round of celebration with my gers and god-brothers.. but this round is even more exciting! besides my own family gathering, this IS my family gathering. ..
cant wait for my birthday celebrationS!.. what a GREAT difference it will be, from my last birthday! :) God restores my birthday joy and even blesses with greater joy this yr!! haha..
(i can just imagine how rowdy we will be at the dining table~~.. so typical chinese)
Awesome start today with Rev John Bevere
It was AWESOME~~! Totally awesome! It's like sitting with my seat-belt on a totally awesome ride! ok i know i may be bias (cos i really like him!) but he's really totally humourous + sensitive + annointed! and man, he speaks really fast, even at quoting of verses (he really knows the Bible so so well - word for word!) hence, it's really like sitting thru a exciting speed ride.. totally enriching n awesome awesome! i really urge u people to read his book - he WILL change ur life values about honoring people and much more, for the better of you!
attending sun service is so different from sat service.. yes, though both days we ve to be in church 'early' for pre-service prayer meetings.. but the feeling and atmosphere is so unlike. on Sun, there're more people (perhaps cos i kept bumping into a lot of my friends - be they from CHC or FCBC).. waiting at the same Foyer 3 felt so different, so full of 'surprises'
the next exciting thing is BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION WITH N277! it's kinda inpromptu thing to discuss over lunch.. they are getting me all excited with their proposals n suggestions~ (guess who has to do the planning n coordinating work?) cos this yr is a special yr for J - grand entrance into the 3!, 'victory' celebration overwhat happened, and also act as an excuse to gather everyone before some of them fly to Australia and Taiwan for their long-term posting, not to forget all the other members who are also Feb kids (ie a combined bday celebration!).. best of all, it's CNY - we can have our annual '魚生' ! I'm so excited and honoured to be the 'official organiser'! even though i've planned my first round of celebration with my gers and god-brothers.. but this round is even more exciting! besides my own family gathering, this IS my family gathering. ..
cant wait for my birthday celebrationS!.. what a GREAT difference it will be, from my last birthday! :) God restores my birthday joy and even blesses with greater joy this yr!! haha..
(i can just imagine how rowdy we will be at the dining table~~.. so typical chinese)
10 Jan 09 - You will not be judged according to what you did, but rather according to what you were called to do!
i finally get to see my favourite author in person! He looks so much YOUNGER than his age! though Rev Phil is young and energetic, but Rev John Bevere is even much younger-looking! (it's amazing how men of God can preserve their youth so well!) i suppose Abraham, too, looked very charming and charismatic even though he was old in age.. is it a 'trademark' for all men of God?
how i get to know John Bevere??
not bcos of he has been to CHC (the last time he came i was not even converted), not bcos of his infamous best-seller books (ie Bait of Satan).. but cos i was desperate for a book to read one day.. i went to my fav bookstore (other than Attributes) in Chinatown.. my finger was running through the books and this book - FEAR OF GOD just stuck to my hand, like an iron to a magnet.. i knew i just had to get this book.. that's how i get to know of Rev John.. then his wonderful wife Lisa Bevere who is also a good friend of Joyce Meyer.. I really love his teachings be it books or audio.. totally awesome and annointed!
Great writer with Great wife and Great friend = 3 Great teachers!
i cant wait to attend tmr service again! (he's sharing a different message each service) i dun usually go for 2 services unless i've to accompany a young member but this weekend is just too awesome to be missed! tonight's sharing was powerful - it really put me back in place! i'm so excited for the Word tmr!!
What we do with the cross determines where we will spend eternity. However, the way we live as believers determines how we will spend eternity.
You will not be judged according to what you did, but rather according to what you were called to do!
how i get to know John Bevere??
not bcos of he has been to CHC (the last time he came i was not even converted), not bcos of his infamous best-seller books (ie Bait of Satan).. but cos i was desperate for a book to read one day.. i went to my fav bookstore (other than Attributes) in Chinatown.. my finger was running through the books and this book - FEAR OF GOD just stuck to my hand, like an iron to a magnet.. i knew i just had to get this book.. that's how i get to know of Rev John.. then his wonderful wife Lisa Bevere who is also a good friend of Joyce Meyer.. I really love his teachings be it books or audio.. totally awesome and annointed!
Great writer with Great wife and Great friend = 3 Great teachers!
i cant wait to attend tmr service again! (he's sharing a different message each service) i dun usually go for 2 services unless i've to accompany a young member but this weekend is just too awesome to be missed! tonight's sharing was powerful - it really put me back in place! i'm so excited for the Word tmr!!
What we do with the cross determines where we will spend eternity. However, the way we live as believers determines how we will spend eternity.
You will not be judged according to what you did, but rather according to what you were called to do!
Saturday, January 10, 2009
10 Jan 09 - It's SPINNING!! :P
Haha~~~! someone has been wanting to upload this moving pic up, but it doesnt move.. and I'm finally able to do so! "ASK and it shall be GIVEN, SEEK and you shall FIND"~hahaha.. I'm so happy and thankful to ve my wonderful god-bro who is IT advisor to my blog!! He's the BEST brother!
oh, just for infor - this is supposed to be a 'IQ test'?.. the normal people sees it spinning clockwise or anti-clockwise (ie 1-direction), while some 'adnormal' people sees it both ways.. and supposedly these 'adnormal' people has a higher IQ. (I'm so proud to say i'm NORMAL, ahhaa.. ) hey, life is simple.. dun complicate things,ya? :P
.. ya, right, bro so u see it both ways..ok ok.. u r my SMART and IT PROFICIENT brother! (happy?) hehe.. just have to feed your ego, right? haha...
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you cant imagine the crowd in wet market this morning~ I actually had to wait 30mins for our al-fresco table for breakfast (we usually sit in the open cos of our dogs).. and i'm STARVING.. to make it worse, the long quene for my usual veg stall is enough to drive me nuts.. i was really STARVING!! today is teh 1st day of the last lunar month.. it's kinda funny if u think about it - people really make themselves real busy by having some 'significant' days, when they should regard every day significantly.. right??
confess - i'm one of those funny people..
i really tired myself out, exhausted, totally fagged out these days (that explains my MIA)... besides clearing away half of my 2 wardrobes and my bags cabinet, i still pushed myself to re-arrange my room furnitures.. i actually took 2 long weekends to spring clean and that's only MY ROOM! .. i know that's my bi-annual habit to move things around, but i still cant get used to its physical demands. it's really demanding esp for a thin boney female. (my family gave up helping, cos i'm very fussy with what, where and how i put my things).. ya i know - in a way, i asked for it... :(
anyway, after this week of spring cleaning the whole house, it's time to get ready for Chinese New Year!
all the cookies and goodies (goodbye to my fav BBQ meat~~)..
all the shopping and marketing (it's really fun to walk in Chinatown these days in midst of the RED sea~~)..
all the cracking of heads to come up with new innovative dish for reunion (that's my family culture - everyone has to prepare at least one dish for reunion dinner, MALE INCLUSIVE)..
funny people getting ourselves tired for 'special' days..
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
7 Jan 09 - Stop this vicious cycle!
I know being a typical Singaporean, I should not comment on international affairs, since it is the ‘job of the government’, not common citizens like me. But I’m really totally upset!!
Everyone knows no place is safe during war, but still.. there is International Humanitarian Law which defines the conduct and responsibilities of belligerent nations, neutral nations and individuals engaged in warfare, in relation to each other and to protected persons, usually meaning civilians! Very often, humanitarian institutions hold a great importance during battle. Not only do they provide medical aid and treatment, they also serve as ‘a place of security’ in the midst of all insecurity. Of course, the persons-in-charge of these institutions face such great decision to identify, guard and to defend whoever wish to enter and whoever under the protection of such institutions.
Yet, having identified as UN school institution in Gaza, there is no safe place for the kids. True, there are some militants taking refuge in this UN school. But why cant they? Everyone has the right to ‘repent’ for their actions, and turn to seek protection under these international institutions. Even God told Moses and Joshua to set aside cities of refuge for anyone who kills a person accidentally and unintentionally may flee there and find protection from the avenger of blood (Joshua 20: 1-3)! Is it justifiable to attack the school full of innocent kids because of some repented militants?
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/middle_east/7813762.stm
.. my heart aches for the poor kids.. cant imagine what a great scar this battle has made in their minds and hearts.. how much insecurity is planted in these young hearts.. what a childhood scar they will have to live with 20yr?30yrs? or even 50yrs down the road!
This is really a vicious cycle someone has to stop it!!
Despite the insecurity from the financial tsunami, let us pray for wisdom for leaders in Israel and Palestine; pray for comfort and protection on the innocents; and peace and reconciliation for Gaza. In Jesus’ Holy Name, Amen!
Everyone knows no place is safe during war, but still.. there is International Humanitarian Law which defines the conduct and responsibilities of belligerent nations, neutral nations and individuals engaged in warfare, in relation to each other and to protected persons, usually meaning civilians! Very often, humanitarian institutions hold a great importance during battle. Not only do they provide medical aid and treatment, they also serve as ‘a place of security’ in the midst of all insecurity. Of course, the persons-in-charge of these institutions face such great decision to identify, guard and to defend whoever wish to enter and whoever under the protection of such institutions.
Yet, having identified as UN school institution in Gaza, there is no safe place for the kids. True, there are some militants taking refuge in this UN school. But why cant they? Everyone has the right to ‘repent’ for their actions, and turn to seek protection under these international institutions. Even God told Moses and Joshua to set aside cities of refuge for anyone who kills a person accidentally and unintentionally may flee there and find protection from the avenger of blood (Joshua 20: 1-3)! Is it justifiable to attack the school full of innocent kids because of some repented militants?
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/middle_east/7813762.stm
.. my heart aches for the poor kids.. cant imagine what a great scar this battle has made in their minds and hearts.. how much insecurity is planted in these young hearts.. what a childhood scar they will have to live with 20yr?30yrs? or even 50yrs down the road!
This is really a vicious cycle someone has to stop it!!
Despite the insecurity from the financial tsunami, let us pray for wisdom for leaders in Israel and Palestine; pray for comfort and protection on the innocents; and peace and reconciliation for Gaza. In Jesus’ Holy Name, Amen!
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
6 Jan 09 - 10 days into Gaza offensive
Have u been following the news? (And I’m not talking about FA news!)
It’s kinda sad when most people I know don't know or even heard of what is happening in Gaza. (hello, people! Please wise up! Cozy-cushioned Singapore is NOT the only country in this world!)
I can understand why the firm standing by Israel not to cease attacks on Hamas’ militants, but perhaps a considerable reduction - Israel's desire to protect itself. While they insist they are not targeting civilians, but how do bombs identify who is civilian and who is not? I agree with Dr Mads Gilbert that it is a very silly statement to make.
It’s almost blindly assumes that militants will be ‘outstanding’ in a clear area for Israel to attack. Anyone in the right mind will find shield, perhaps even in the expense of civilians shielding. It’s almost calling out to Hamas that “come out from your hiding and fight”.. what a heroic calling. But who in the right mind will follow the good old traditional battle tactics to fight in a non-residence area?
Looking at the limited Gaza reports, I can’t help wondering how many more are actually being killed and injured without being known. Is 25% a real 25% of death toll? So many more women and children are being wounded, both physically and psychologically. In fact, what makes you think militants can’t hide? Being trained physically and mentally for battle, they would have and be able to find themselves a safe shelter from the bombings. It is the poor civilians, esp women and children, who are not trained for such life-and-death battle who are more exposed to those bombs.
Looking at this ‘protection’ attacks, how hurting is it to the heart of God.. His creation killing His creation in the name of self-protection. ... somehow... i know Jesus is weeping now..
It’s kinda sad when most people I know don't know or even heard of what is happening in Gaza. (hello, people! Please wise up! Cozy-cushioned Singapore is NOT the only country in this world!)
I can understand why the firm standing by Israel not to cease attacks on Hamas’ militants, but perhaps a considerable reduction - Israel's desire to protect itself. While they insist they are not targeting civilians, but how do bombs identify who is civilian and who is not? I agree with Dr Mads Gilbert that it is a very silly statement to make.
It’s almost blindly assumes that militants will be ‘outstanding’ in a clear area for Israel to attack. Anyone in the right mind will find shield, perhaps even in the expense of civilians shielding. It’s almost calling out to Hamas that “come out from your hiding and fight”.. what a heroic calling. But who in the right mind will follow the good old traditional battle tactics to fight in a non-residence area?
Looking at the limited Gaza reports, I can’t help wondering how many more are actually being killed and injured without being known. Is 25% a real 25% of death toll? So many more women and children are being wounded, both physically and psychologically. In fact, what makes you think militants can’t hide? Being trained physically and mentally for battle, they would have and be able to find themselves a safe shelter from the bombings. It is the poor civilians, esp women and children, who are not trained for such life-and-death battle who are more exposed to those bombs.
Looking at this ‘protection’ attacks, how hurting is it to the heart of God.. His creation killing His creation in the name of self-protection. ... somehow... i know Jesus is weeping now..
Monday, January 05, 2009
5 Jan 09 - How to behave when attached
how wld u behave when u r attached, ie ve a bf/gf?
i noticed being in romance make people behave childish(if i may put it this way).. yes, i do agree that people will be 'soften' by love, but still.. u need to know when to behave and how to carry yourself.. being in romance do not make u 'exclusive' from the family. there's still requirement of respect and honour to family members to be fulfilled... i know i can be very open and friendly but sometimes i do feel like snapping at some people to put them in place.. it is a thin line between friendly and misbehaving, esp when they treat respect casually.
some advice to those in relationship..
1) give the honour and respect to each and everyone in the family in front of ur partner.
of course i'm not saying to be haughty and proud, but no matter how close you are, they still are your family. Even if they are 1day older or 1 min younger, they still holds authority in the family. you may think 'what's the big deal' and i can tell you - IT IS A BIG DEAL.
Without going to the Bible's teaching on authority(you can refer to my previous blog), giving respect to everyone in the family will project your upbringing. (yes, i know it's very old school nagging but it's very true) how would u feel - when u meet up with ur partner's family, ur partner call them by silly names and the line of respect is so 'blur'. do you feel respectful to them? again, i'm not saying you cannot be casually friendly but you really must watch the line, esp addressing the elders. what goes around comes around. even if the elders may not earn your respect, they are your elders!
2) always put your own family first before your partner.
this is so typical.. once people are in relationship, they listen to their partners rather than their elders. I know it's 'common' cos i have failed in this area before. being 'been there done that', assuredly i say to you besides our Heavenly Father, no one absolutely NO ONE is more faithful than your family members. when all things collapse, your family will always be there for you as your support. as the old saying goes 'blood is thicker than water' - your partner may change but your family sticks with you throughout your life.
in fact i believe a good life-partner will not only try to be embraced into the family but also bring closer bonding and love into the 2 families. i know it sounds utopia, but it is all possible - if he/she really love you with all his/her heart and willing to take ownership of the 2 family bonds. (afterall marriage is a merger of 2 families)
3) never bad-mouth your family to your partner.
ok, let me justify myself - i'm not saying you cannot pour your woes (ir domestic quarrels or complaints) to your partner. in fact, you should cos they will know how to behave when they meet. but you should NEVER EVER UNDERMINE THEIR HONOUR AS FAMILY MEMBERS. an chinese saying goes ' never wash dirty laundry in public.' no family is perfect - hence there's bound to be some dark dirty secrets or bad politics.. after confiding (i use this word CONFIDE) to your partner, always ensure to restore honour back to the relevant members. like i said, how you regard your family members reflects your upbringing. you still do want your honour in the family after some domestic disagreement, right? trust me - what goes around comes around.
hence, do yourself a favour - carry yourself and your family well to your partners.
if you want a good happy marriage for the rest of your life, honour and respect your family members, from the oldest to the youngest. it will not only save your relationship but also grow closer in love.
Prov 11:29
He who brings trouble on his family will inherit only wind
i noticed being in romance make people behave childish(if i may put it this way).. yes, i do agree that people will be 'soften' by love, but still.. u need to know when to behave and how to carry yourself.. being in romance do not make u 'exclusive' from the family. there's still requirement of respect and honour to family members to be fulfilled... i know i can be very open and friendly but sometimes i do feel like snapping at some people to put them in place.. it is a thin line between friendly and misbehaving, esp when they treat respect casually.
some advice to those in relationship..
1) give the honour and respect to each and everyone in the family in front of ur partner.
of course i'm not saying to be haughty and proud, but no matter how close you are, they still are your family. Even if they are 1day older or 1 min younger, they still holds authority in the family. you may think 'what's the big deal' and i can tell you - IT IS A BIG DEAL.
Without going to the Bible's teaching on authority(you can refer to my previous blog), giving respect to everyone in the family will project your upbringing. (yes, i know it's very old school nagging but it's very true) how would u feel - when u meet up with ur partner's family, ur partner call them by silly names and the line of respect is so 'blur'. do you feel respectful to them? again, i'm not saying you cannot be casually friendly but you really must watch the line, esp addressing the elders. what goes around comes around. even if the elders may not earn your respect, they are your elders!
2) always put your own family first before your partner.
this is so typical.. once people are in relationship, they listen to their partners rather than their elders. I know it's 'common' cos i have failed in this area before. being 'been there done that', assuredly i say to you besides our Heavenly Father, no one absolutely NO ONE is more faithful than your family members. when all things collapse, your family will always be there for you as your support. as the old saying goes 'blood is thicker than water' - your partner may change but your family sticks with you throughout your life.
in fact i believe a good life-partner will not only try to be embraced into the family but also bring closer bonding and love into the 2 families. i know it sounds utopia, but it is all possible - if he/she really love you with all his/her heart and willing to take ownership of the 2 family bonds. (afterall marriage is a merger of 2 families)
3) never bad-mouth your family to your partner.
ok, let me justify myself - i'm not saying you cannot pour your woes (ir domestic quarrels or complaints) to your partner. in fact, you should cos they will know how to behave when they meet. but you should NEVER EVER UNDERMINE THEIR HONOUR AS FAMILY MEMBERS. an chinese saying goes ' never wash dirty laundry in public.' no family is perfect - hence there's bound to be some dark dirty secrets or bad politics.. after confiding (i use this word CONFIDE) to your partner, always ensure to restore honour back to the relevant members. like i said, how you regard your family members reflects your upbringing. you still do want your honour in the family after some domestic disagreement, right? trust me - what goes around comes around.
hence, do yourself a favour - carry yourself and your family well to your partners.
if you want a good happy marriage for the rest of your life, honour and respect your family members, from the oldest to the youngest. it will not only save your relationship but also grow closer in love.
Prov 11:29
He who brings trouble on his family will inherit only wind
Sunday, January 04, 2009
3 Jan 09 - Baptism and MEN'S MINISTRY
quick.. let me tell u abt my day!! :)
all was normal n tiring after bathing my dogs this morning.. then i just feel so lethargic.. took a nap and didnt even feel like attending church service today (it's so tempting to fake MC!).. to make matter worse, my pot broke into pieces when i was trying to prepare my lunch.. that really made me feel like 'resting at home' for the day.. (fyi, dun ask me how it broke - i've been using it to cook so many times, today it just 'burst' .. just like that.. usual actions unexpected outcome) .. but yet.. i know when things like these happen - the more i dun feel like going to church, the greater thing is in store for me.. just some 'mishap' trying to deter me from enjoying God's blessings.. hence i dragged myself to Expo..
how right i am! u really have to believe in spiritual warfare when things like these happen.. today's sharing is going thru CHC's 2009 activities plan with the congregation. (talk about starting the year right, pst Kong really plan well way in advance!)
1) i'm so excited!! Water Baptism on 28th Feb!! i've always wanted my baptism to be on same month of my birthday (easy to remember :D ) and here it is!! i'm so happy!! for all my yrs as Christian i've waited for this day, this BIG Day! for those of u who dun understand the significance of Water Baptism in Christianity, it's really a BIG THING!! it's almost like getting married, just that on this day we are married to Jesus Christ as we publicly declare our faith in Him...esp my parents FINALLY gave their consensus for my baptism(after all these yrs!), this is the BIG AFFAIR to me! i'm so excited for it!! i really wish my parents and my loved ones wil be there to witness this marriage!! (in the past i've always wanted 'him' to be there too.. to witness my baptism in church.. but oh well, i never know.. maybe 'he' will be there too by Divine Appointment)
2) the next exciting news is MEN'S MINISTRY IS BACK!! i'm so so happy! just as i've been complaining abt the standard of human male species, i'm very very very excited when pst Kong decided to 'revive' Men's ministry to FULL ACTION!! Guys, you better not miss this powerful seminar!! You are male by birth, but man by CHOICE! Man is meant to guide, to guard and to govern! it's time to RISE UP and be a MAN!
(it's so exciting even though i'm a female) cant wait to see the difference in male's standard! Men of strong faith and conviction, fulfilling the purpose of his creation!
*finally, beam of hope for the human male species*
..finally.. i had fellowship dinner in CHIJMES (yes, that expensive place).. someone was looking at me with such interest before she commented "J,you are now so different from the J in thomson cafe (Jan08)". What a GREAT comment - all glory be to God! she had seen how thin and pale i was, knew what i had to go through (even had to be excused from her wedding) and now she is seeing the 'glow' in me now (fyi that's her exact words - glow in J).. trust me, i was really so afraid of bumping into her (which i obciously did) last Chinese New Year - I was so thin, pale (whatsoever) and just want to be away from her.. she really seen thru J's transformation in 2008.. so when words like these came from her, i know she really meant it.
All Glory and Praise to God!
all was normal n tiring after bathing my dogs this morning.. then i just feel so lethargic.. took a nap and didnt even feel like attending church service today (it's so tempting to fake MC!).. to make matter worse, my pot broke into pieces when i was trying to prepare my lunch.. that really made me feel like 'resting at home' for the day.. (fyi, dun ask me how it broke - i've been using it to cook so many times, today it just 'burst' .. just like that.. usual actions unexpected outcome) .. but yet.. i know when things like these happen - the more i dun feel like going to church, the greater thing is in store for me.. just some 'mishap' trying to deter me from enjoying God's blessings.. hence i dragged myself to Expo..
how right i am! u really have to believe in spiritual warfare when things like these happen.. today's sharing is going thru CHC's 2009 activities plan with the congregation. (talk about starting the year right, pst Kong really plan well way in advance!)
1) i'm so excited!! Water Baptism on 28th Feb!! i've always wanted my baptism to be on same month of my birthday (easy to remember :D ) and here it is!! i'm so happy!! for all my yrs as Christian i've waited for this day, this BIG Day! for those of u who dun understand the significance of Water Baptism in Christianity, it's really a BIG THING!! it's almost like getting married, just that on this day we are married to Jesus Christ as we publicly declare our faith in Him...esp my parents FINALLY gave their consensus for my baptism(after all these yrs!), this is the BIG AFFAIR to me! i'm so excited for it!! i really wish my parents and my loved ones wil be there to witness this marriage!! (in the past i've always wanted 'him' to be there too.. to witness my baptism in church.. but oh well, i never know.. maybe 'he' will be there too by Divine Appointment)
2) the next exciting news is MEN'S MINISTRY IS BACK!! i'm so so happy! just as i've been complaining abt the standard of human male species, i'm very very very excited when pst Kong decided to 'revive' Men's ministry to FULL ACTION!! Guys, you better not miss this powerful seminar!! You are male by birth, but man by CHOICE! Man is meant to guide, to guard and to govern! it's time to RISE UP and be a MAN!
(it's so exciting even though i'm a female) cant wait to see the difference in male's standard! Men of strong faith and conviction, fulfilling the purpose of his creation!
*finally, beam of hope for the human male species*
..finally.. i had fellowship dinner in CHIJMES (yes, that expensive place).. someone was looking at me with such interest before she commented "J,you are now so different from the J in thomson cafe (Jan08)". What a GREAT comment - all glory be to God! she had seen how thin and pale i was, knew what i had to go through (even had to be excused from her wedding) and now she is seeing the 'glow' in me now (fyi that's her exact words - glow in J).. trust me, i was really so afraid of bumping into her (which i obciously did) last Chinese New Year - I was so thin, pale (whatsoever) and just want to be away from her.. she really seen thru J's transformation in 2008.. so when words like these came from her, i know she really meant it.
All Glory and Praise to God!
Friday, January 02, 2009
2 Jan 09 - Saint Anthony
went shopping for my sis' bf's bday present (it kinda weird cos she's so excited while i've no interest) ..then we met up with my mum for dinner..it was then that i realised I LOST MY WALLET!!
i distinctively remembered taking it out to pay for the FOX belt (yes, bro - it is THAT purple belt) yet now the whole wallet is not in my bag!! from good mood of shopping to super high tension! what a total roller-coaster ride! being very logical, i pulled my sis into this whirlpool and get her to call the FOX outlet.. but no receipt, no number! next image in my mind is : ok J, what can you afford to lose besides the newly withdrawn cash, (afterall 30mins had passed and money can be earned back)..my prayer cards!! my prayer cards and my prayer booklet which RCIA had blessed me!! Immediately i was reminded how St Anthony helped me in my lost-and-found previously.. I IMMEDIATELY TURN TO ST ANTHONY FOR HELP! (trust me - if anyone can help me to recover my lost wallet, i'd just do that! I'm that DESPERATE!)
despite my total panick+tension+trying to be rationale mind, my mum kept telling me 'it's gone, no need to find already.. someone must have taken it by now'.. i tell you, if you ever encounter such case and have nothing consoling to say, then SHUT UP! (that is actually what i snapped at my mum.. i know it's totally unfilial but I was really under tremendous STRESS!) how could i be so careless! my heart was trying so hard to focus on a prayer for help. while my sis' called the directory hotline to get the store's number (how resourceful)..
the whole panick search took about 5mins.. before i finally called the store and had this 'yes, we've got it here' reply! it's like a totally heavy boulder finally put down! it was then my tone is much 'calmer' and explained to my mum for my harsh tone.. of course, not to forget the Divine Protection, how i give thanks in my heart!!
after some hard effort to relax and to have a 'relaxing quick' walk around the shops, i dashed back to FOX store to retrieve my wallet.. what a relief to see my wallet again, with everything in-tact somemore! .. believe it or not, the store assistant told me another person was just about to take it away when she found it (dun ask me how but she seemed to recognise it belongs to me).. you cant imagine how I really thank God for that!! just imagine if she didn't 'recognise' it, my wallet will be totally 'sayonara!'
.. remembering what Father Yim always say - for every physical action, there is a spiritual realm. it's like a 'covering' over everything on earth. you may not believe it, but time and again, my prayers are answered.. nothing and no one could have done that, except the power of spiritual realm. i really believe my God is watching and protecting me all these while, even right now!
Praise to You, my Heavenly Father! Thank You so much for Your love and protection!!
Jere 33:3
Call to Me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know.
i distinctively remembered taking it out to pay for the FOX belt (yes, bro - it is THAT purple belt) yet now the whole wallet is not in my bag!! from good mood of shopping to super high tension! what a total roller-coaster ride! being very logical, i pulled my sis into this whirlpool and get her to call the FOX outlet.. but no receipt, no number! next image in my mind is : ok J, what can you afford to lose besides the newly withdrawn cash, (afterall 30mins had passed and money can be earned back)..my prayer cards!! my prayer cards and my prayer booklet which RCIA had blessed me!! Immediately i was reminded how St Anthony helped me in my lost-and-found previously.. I IMMEDIATELY TURN TO ST ANTHONY FOR HELP! (trust me - if anyone can help me to recover my lost wallet, i'd just do that! I'm that DESPERATE!)
despite my total panick+tension+trying to be rationale mind, my mum kept telling me 'it's gone, no need to find already.. someone must have taken it by now'.. i tell you, if you ever encounter such case and have nothing consoling to say, then SHUT UP! (that is actually what i snapped at my mum.. i know it's totally unfilial but I was really under tremendous STRESS!) how could i be so careless! my heart was trying so hard to focus on a prayer for help. while my sis' called the directory hotline to get the store's number (how resourceful)..
the whole panick search took about 5mins.. before i finally called the store and had this 'yes, we've got it here' reply! it's like a totally heavy boulder finally put down! it was then my tone is much 'calmer' and explained to my mum for my harsh tone.. of course, not to forget the Divine Protection, how i give thanks in my heart!!
after some hard effort to relax and to have a 'relaxing quick' walk around the shops, i dashed back to FOX store to retrieve my wallet.. what a relief to see my wallet again, with everything in-tact somemore! .. believe it or not, the store assistant told me another person was just about to take it away when she found it (dun ask me how but she seemed to recognise it belongs to me).. you cant imagine how I really thank God for that!! just imagine if she didn't 'recognise' it, my wallet will be totally 'sayonara!'
.. remembering what Father Yim always say - for every physical action, there is a spiritual realm. it's like a 'covering' over everything on earth. you may not believe it, but time and again, my prayers are answered.. nothing and no one could have done that, except the power of spiritual realm. i really believe my God is watching and protecting me all these while, even right now!
Praise to You, my Heavenly Father! Thank You so much for Your love and protection!!
Jere 33:3
Call to Me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know.
Thursday, January 01, 2009
1 Jan 09 - What is yours is yours
what a way to start the new yr - a brand NEW blog with a GREAT title!
met up with my god-brothers today to exchange belated Christmas presents and did some CNY shopping with them.. it's been SO LONG since J shopped for guys' attire.. what a good start.. not to forget the totally NEW experience for them to dine at North Indian restuarant! (Cos J is on special diet, hence my 2 very thoughtful bros accommodated me :P.. how sweet of them)
ok, new blog + new shopping experience + new dining experience.. what a NEW GREAT 2009!
..came home.. saw an envelope.. ripping it open, my Jap notebook lies in front of me.. (i cant even recognise his handwriting!).. what is yours is yours.. how true.. my Jap noteboook - the one which i assumed 'lost' when he didn't arrange to return then, is now back to me.. i cant help thinking how did he feel when he had to send it thru local mail.. sad? (i doubt so) liberated?? (most likely..) but whatever it is, my precious notebook is now back with me..
What is mine is mine, it's just a matter of time :) When God told me to 'wait', i'm sure He meant it with a greater purpose :)
Thanks be to God in the Highest, who is worthy of all praise and worship!!
Psa 46:10
Be still, and know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation. I will be honored throughout the world.
met up with my god-brothers today to exchange belated Christmas presents and did some CNY shopping with them.. it's been SO LONG since J shopped for guys' attire.. what a good start.. not to forget the totally NEW experience for them to dine at North Indian restuarant! (Cos J is on special diet, hence my 2 very thoughtful bros accommodated me :P.. how sweet of them)
ok, new blog + new shopping experience + new dining experience.. what a NEW GREAT 2009!
..came home.. saw an envelope.. ripping it open, my Jap notebook lies in front of me.. (i cant even recognise his handwriting!).. what is yours is yours.. how true.. my Jap noteboook - the one which i assumed 'lost' when he didn't arrange to return then, is now back to me.. i cant help thinking how did he feel when he had to send it thru local mail.. sad? (i doubt so) liberated?? (most likely..) but whatever it is, my precious notebook is now back with me..
What is mine is mine, it's just a matter of time :) When God told me to 'wait', i'm sure He meant it with a greater purpose :)
Thanks be to God in the Highest, who is worthy of all praise and worship!!
Psa 46:10
Be still, and know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation. I will be honored throughout the world.
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