if u watch the tv series '宮心計' u will be touched by the love between the goody maiden (三好) and the dashing knight (顯揚). their love is so accidental, forbidden yet so blessed.. they really cherish the limited precious time of being together,away from others in palace. whenever he has to leave palace on official trips, she'll look forward to the night where he promised he'll return...and he never fail in his words.
not trying to be drama-queen, but i really shared her feelings when they could finally meet again,after his long official travel.. unfortunately,i dont have the virtue of patience like hers. i know and i expect myself to throw some tantrums now and then - the aftermath of loneliness. *hey, what do u expect? i live in reality, not tv*
after throwing some emo tantrums i flew to hongkong last wkends to be with my darling.. after 1 whole mth of 15mins video chat (he's in US) each day, i finally get to hold his hands and be in his hug.. NOTHING BEATS THE REAL THING! however, our 'quality' time was limited by his work schedule which i had to spend the whole of sunday ALONE under hkg's insane summer heat! firstly,i m not the shopping type of girl - leaving me walking aimlessly; secondly,the freaking heat is really so so so HOT- i nearly fainted on the street! if not for the ONE available seat in the starbucks at a corner, you can be sure i'd have dehydrated and fainted in foreign land *i have never appreciated the trees on singapore streets till now! i so love u,trees of singapore!!* it's just freaking too hot to go out anywhere! for the first time of my travel life, i'm actually checked into airport 3HRS before departure!! i decided it's better to stay in airport with higher chance of 'notifying' the airline in case i faint, at least i wont miss my flight~ *did i mention i was escorted to boarding gate cos i arrived in airport at 810pm for 830pm flight? the gate was re-opened cos of me! gosh, that was one hell rush of experience!*
back to my time w darling.. i really miss him though i could only have his saturday last week. being with him, no matter how familiar hkg is to me, i can choose to 'switch off' my navigation mode and simply follow his directions (though mine may be better). i surprised myself that i actually could be such dependent woman..i know how difficult it was for him to 'sneak out' from work, in midst of his busy project. i really appreciate his efforts and really cant bear to let him return to work on sunday morning~ *when will these sweet-meetings-sad-departures ever going to end? can i just have a normal rship with normal time schedule??* now.. all i can do is try to get back on my feet, and be INdependent again till our next meeting..
p/s: my darling is so sweet~ he 'advanced' his chinese vday present *i like it so much!* despite my 'heartache' on the cost! and he even bought a couple of supplements as allies against my depression and my weak knees~ *so thoughtful,right? but who wants to receive pills as gifts?! :( *...... now the pressure is on me to get his vday present!! any GOOD suggestion?
oh, btw this is our FIRST Vday (even though it's chinese one), and he'll be in US (again) on that day!!! :(((
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