i m very upset now.. VERY might even be understatement..
i know i failed in my words last night.. i thought it's just a normal dinner chat with colleagues, but it turned out to be a really exciting dinner cum world cup match *holland was really outstanding, despite the damn fast goal from brazil* the whole brewery restaurant went so wild with shouts and enthusiasm *that's why watching soccer match in big groups are really engaging~* so much so that i was tempted to watch the finals with friends next week.. as a result of the excitement and hipe, my group decided to share jugs of beer *ok the beer is really fresh n nice, even for non-beer drinker like me* where we cheered, chatted and shared 'rship' stories with one another till wee hours (typical girls' talk).
the very moment i reach home, i tried to redeem myself at first hour by calling my darling whom i know will be very upset with me.. i was that prepared to face the music.. i didnt inform him earlier cos he told me he had morning meeting (UTC-7hrs).. anyway i knew i have to face the music so i called.. his tone indicated he's very upset even though he kept saying 'never mind,go and sleep'..
i didnt have a good sleep *there must be some phobia in my subconscious about catching flights* this time i dreamt i had to catch 5.30pm flight, and it's already 4.30pm i'm still at home! i simply threw necessary toiletries and a couple of clothes into a really small bag and rush for transport to airport.. i was so time-conscious about getting to airport on-time, before the boarding gate close at 5pm~ somehow everything was in such a rush under great stress for time.. i shouted aloud in panic and woke myself up (again!).. it's 8am on 3Jul10 morning and i only slept at 3.30am last night!
everything just went totally wrong for me this morning since the dream, despite really nice cooling weather (rare phenomenon in singapore)... slight headache cos of lack of sleep => noisy (very interactive) family breakfast + concerned with my darling's anger.. then my ultimate red stop was pressed when a woman answered his mobile! i was totally pissed pissed!! i can understand that office mobile tends to swap between users but it just got me boiling with the fact that i was not informed~!!when i finally managed to log online, we had such a quarrel across distance and timezone!
i know i'm in the wrong for last night and i am really sorry for it.. but he amplified the issue to the assumption that my words cannot be trusted! THAT WAS IT! no matter how much i tried to reason for my failure, how much i tried to excuse him for his fury (he's been working around the clock past days - i know it's very tiring), 'your words cannot be trusted' was really my last straw!! was he reasonable when he decided not to inform of his mobile swap despite his anger (those are 2 different issues!)?! how about my feelings when i was trying so hard to contact him (mobile and room) only to hear a woman answer his mobile?!
talk about bad morning, i really had it all this morning!! i am so in bad mood now!
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