time now is 1.34am. in exact 12hrs later, i'll be celebrating my big day - baptism after a 15yrs wait.. somehow, the reality of baptism had not set in till i was rushing around in amk hub for a white blouse just now (dont worry, i've gotten my new white blouse in that 1hr!) *that's efficient shopping!*
when the night is quiet and everything is still now, i confess.. i'm afraid for any hipcup tmr. be it 'spiritual resistance' or 'coincidental', my mum was called to work tmr morning but she will try to leave on time for my baptism whereas my sis, who will be our driver for the day,suddenly has been feeling sick these 2 days (she claimed something is meddling with her health) *talk about superstitious, my sis can really hit the charts**even if it's something, i know and i know my God is Greater to overcome all! Praise the Lord!!*.. well,people, keep praying for me and my family.. with my upcoming baptism- such a great event and breakthrough in spiritual realm, i really can rely on God's protection to go through it, for my family and myself..
another thing of mind is.. u-know-what..
just few nights ago, i was telling myself.. after evaluating the situation and consolidating all ye comments, i kinda give up on guys. it's not that i'm waiting for B to return or using B as comparison (i kinda tired of going thru such relationship again)... despite the fact i've 'lowered' my requirements, i doubt anyone in current standard of 'boys'(note: i dun even call them 'men') can fulfil.. and with my new work life, i simply have no time to socialise as before.. *if anything is to happen, it really has to be the work of God!*
yet, to my surprise.. everyone seems to know and been praying for a good relationship for me.. gosh, am i that 'obviously' desperate or have i become a well-known 'hard-to-please' bachelorette? with their faith and your prayers, i felt the tingle of faith-at-work.. just as i'm about to shut this door, u people keep putting the door-stopper down.. then again, though i know God is eager to answer this prayer, but frankly speaking.. i've no faith to receive.. being logical and rationale, i really dont see how and who He'd plan.. perhaps B would really just return?? ... i really need you people to strenghten my faith in this..
James 5: 15
And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up. If he has sinned, he will be forgiven.
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