11 May 10 - 9 systems in 10 days

today i woke up with heartache+a bit of fear.. not that i'm not looking forward to work, but after my first day at work yesterday, i can feel the pressure on performance.. this job is really very performance focused.. not to mention, i have to understand 9 systems to get 9 workflow flowing, and each system does not speak to each other.. it's really quite a constant manual update and reminders..

i begin to reminisce the good old SAP days cos i only need to understand one system language~ seriously, it's a pain to try to understand how 9 different systems work for each function of its own. i know i complaint abt the monotonous work in SAP but i really wonder if i'm able to exceed my expectations to handle 9 logic at same time.. i really feel the piling stress, esp my 'mentor' will be in maternity leave in 2wks' time.. i will be expected to be fully operational by then!! 14days, 10 work days, 9 logic in workflows~~~ "I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!"

one comfort thing is i met an ex-colleague during orientation today.. cant tell you how it comforts me in my stress, i am really very happy to have someone familiar to talk to.. facing the new challenge, i seem to lose my appetite for lunch and kinda prefer to be alone during lunch (do i need to remind u this is just 2nd day?).. ok, hr team is fun but at the back of our mind, we know the workload and expectations from management are scaling heights on each of us.. i know it's not a good stress management for depression-prone people, but.. i really just want to be alone.. i really miss my darling, though  he is physically miles away... i really need a hug these days..