31 May 10 - i really wish to move out

i am SO ANGRY now! i totally agree that when single 'old woman' is not attached, she is so sicko! and this sicko is no other than my youngest sister! do i have to repeat how bad her attitude is?! READ MY PAST ENTRY if you have not!! dont piss me off futher!!

ever since she broke up with her bf, she has been finding someone to 'blame', to nag and to have control over! being a spoilt brat since young, my parents have never scolded her for her arrogance which made her think she is actually being considerate!? and if u know her, she is so sarcastic and she thinks she is right about it!! *talk about self-righteous!* many a times (like NOW!) i really want to slap her to put her in place, but i know it wont help.. my mum will still stand on her side and being the eldest, i just have to give in! times like this, I REALLY FEEL LIKE PACKING MY CLOTHES AND MOVE OUT!!!

it's enough being very tired from long hours at work yet when i get home, i still have to 'suffer' under this arrogant sister's control! just because i dont like confrontation.. unlike her, i dont like to go to my parents and start complaining about others, blowing up the whole issue.. i always ended up being the 'bully' and the 'unreasonable' just because i choose to retreat and blog it out, sleep over it, instead of nagging aloud as if to 'show off' to whole family that she is the 'boss'!

i remember how B used to frown when he saw me being 'controlled' by my sisters.. i remember how he told me to 'take over the control' but.. it's not me - not what i hope to have in a family! i dont want to control anyone, NEITHER DO I WANT TO BE CONTROLLED! the last thing i would want is to nag at my family members! even with my dad, i know nagging wont help at all! i really feel like slapping her now!!

darling, i miss you.. esp now.. i really want a shoulder to cry on...