can i tell u i had a long day? not becos i had a lot of work to do, but cos i did a lot of travelling.. from south (work) to north (daycare), north (home) to south (cgm) all within 2hrs.. then back to north (home).. all the bus travelling that's tiring me out..
people ask me why do i take all these 'efforts' to send and pick my son up personally when i could ve asked my family who arrive home earlier to do so... why do i fight against time and the awful peak hour traffic just to be on time for my son.. simple reason - i love my son.. all these tiring journeys and sacrifice of sleep are nothing, as long as my son is happy and he wont feel as if he's been abandoned.. watching him sleeping besides me now, nothing.. simply nothing else matters.. (he's been so tired after school that he's sleeping so soundly)...it's really very comforting..
sometimes i do wonder why do i love him so much, or why he loves me so much.. the moment he came into my family, he has chosen me to be his 'guardian' sister.. he's so attached to me.. even though bosco was the one who brought him back, but ... on the contrary.. with true honesty.. hugo does not like bosco.. it's quite funny - everytime bosco is in my house or room, hugo will avoid the place/room with him.. i've always thought it's bcos bosco dun spend enough time with him to build the bonding.. but.. perhaps cos hugo has always been very protective of me.. to the extend that he might have known bosco will hurt me, hence his hostility.. well, this is only my speculation..
the fact is - my son is very protective of me. yes, he is small in size, but trust me, when he's fierce, he's really fierce.. i was taken aback when i saw that facet of his one day when someone attempted to hit in my direction.. he so wanted to bite the man, oh my, my son was really THAT fierce.. dont worry, on normal days he's a sweet black angel (at least to me-my mum says he'll bully her when i'm not around.. haha.. he's very smart, right?)..
sometimes i wonder if he's my guardian angel too.. he is so 'designed for me' - to accompany me, to protect me.. making me laugh, comfort and cry with tears of joy with his silly smile, silly games and his infamous 撒嬌.. he never asks any of my family to play with him except me (my mum says so).. every day he's just waiting for me to come back.. i cant tell you how 'destined' we are but we are.. me and my son..
in fact, my son does not ask for hug or any form of pamper from any of my guy friends who visited my house.. even when bosco's around, he prefers to play by himself.. (all along we've known hugo to be pro-female, not male).. but.. there's this friend.. my mum was the first to notice - my hugo actually went up to him and asked for stroking.. that was really the first time we saw my son doing that.. frankly, i was surprised too.. well, i know he is a good man, good guy.. but i have my reasons..
OK, 1 good man had been sniffed out.. let's await and see who is the blessed one hugo will choose.. to be chosen to be his foster father.. my son, my hugo, my guardian angel..
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