went for Candlelight Service, despite my doc's 'warning' of h1n1 (me, i'm suspected). yes i know that is not very socially responsible, but hey.. i'm down with this h1n1 for more than a month, i should have passed to alot of people by now.. moreover, if i dont turn up today, who knows what's someone will be thinking next.. at least i 'risked' my life to show face and physically display how sick i am, even though i look well and normal.. mind you, i had to wear fleece hand-gloves throughout service~~ that is how cold i am!
but i do admit... the Presence of God was so great today.. i even weep while worshipping Him. it's just so good to know, while people judges me, my Heavenly Father still lifting me up and accepting me and my situation.. seriously, it's good to be embraced by God after 1mth of absence, and experiencing His acceptance and love again. anyway, since He is the Reason of this season, i forgave that someone and hugged her.. well, no point resenting, right? season of Reconciliation :)
anyway, i've a new question... why do i always attract guys when i'm at my spiritual low?? when i'm in my high (ie high maturity), guys seem to regard me as a threat.. for better or worse, i seem to be 'the attraction' for drawing them back to God.. and this usually happens when i'm in my low~!.. why why why....
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