yes, i've not cooled down yet.. which i also know it's very unusual for me to be angry for more than a day.. but what the hell, it takes 2 hands to clap if they continue to be rude and disrespectful.. i'm perfectly fine with silence esp since i really dont like to talk in the first place.
like what i told my dear bro this morning after his qn on how did i manage to get up early with no/less sleep(see, i remember every word i heard n said) .. i was (still) fuming mad that i forced myself to sleep in order to fight that tempting thought of suicide.. trust me, if i've not been able to sleep or if i woke up in middle of night, i'm pretty sure i'll just jump down.. at least jumping down is better than running across the road to be hit down, it wont implicate another person for killing me.. the seducing thought of dying was just so good and right..
which is why i've always said, if you've never been through depression, you'll never know how relentless this monster is.. its provacative suicidal thought is forever lurking around and you need to be on-guard 24-7 against it. dont freaking tell me, it's 'a matter of mind'! try to be in depression yourself!! to make the dish more appealing, add bad flu n cough to it! try fighting the battle with all that! and spice it up with that rude attitude from my sisters!
yes, i was that freaking angry! dun ever piss me further now!!
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