didn't i tell you people stop praying for 'new guy' or any of that sort?
out of sudden, ck dated me out for dinner, dave is showering his concern over me thru msn.. my dear manager is even trying to match-make me with this guy we met at the colleague's bbq. not to mention, the 2 colleagues in my company he's trying to 'introduce' to me as if it's his goal for bonus.
really, people.. i'm really NOT for rship anymore! not anymore! unless my darling settles down and returns, i doubt i'll trust anyone again. my psych asked me if i still can trust minwei again after letting me slipping into depression, but honest to my very heart, yes i am still willing to trust him back wholehearted. everyone deserves a second chance, esp he was really under stress... stress he kept to himself, which should have shared with me..anyway, i stll love him, still hope for him..if only hope come true..
today i practically spent the whole day sleeping and lazing in my room (except my weekly laundry washing), listening to class95 music. it's 'number one' weekends, the songs are simply GREAT! full of memories for me - good memories, the good old days of being carefree.. i miss those days and i miss taiwan where i can put all my burdens and cares down.. i really need a break from this depression monster. he never fails to remind me every morning with uncontrollable shaking then i just have to pop my medication to combat it. i'm surviving on the strength of these medication.. as much as i dont want to, i need to..
that's why i really need a break back to my 2nd home...taiwan...
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