u cannot imagine how HAPPY i was when i clicked on the confirm button for my airticket to 'home'. i was so elated! in that instant, all the freaking stress and glooming depression seem to vanish altogether! i am finally going back! i FINALLY can return bcak to my room, where i can really rest with a total peace of mind~ nothing and nothing will come close to me. no work stress, no depression battle.. just me and my room and my view of the mountains outside my window.. when i'm awake, i can watch tv or go out and breath in the ions of the natural forest. that is so THERAPEUTIC! i m so looking forward to return home! my 2nd home!! and the best part - it's coming soon! i am so so looking forward to it!
yes, i know i just returned 3mths ago but.. i really miss my space badly~ miss having my time of 'joy of doing nothing'~ seriously, i really love my 2nd home so much that i know and i know one day.. just one day, i'll migrate over. not cos of marriage, but cos i simply love living there~ i feel more alive there than in singapore. that is a fact!
tmr is my 2nd appt with my psych who told me to do what i like, or travel to help my battle against depression, so i m merely taking on his advice! i'm such a freaking good patient, right? dont worry, people, this time i'll win this battle from airport to airport. every step of my journey this time is bcos i love to return, not bcos of my darling.
dont ask me if i'll contact minwei, cos u know i wont. i promised him time - time is all he has to get back to me. the ball is in his court, not mine. as for me, my work is time and concentration demanding now. i just want to be my best in whatever i do. therefore, i need a break before angie leaves! goodness, i cant bear to face her on her last day...
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