i chanced upon this caption.. and 'fell in love' with it. why is my love life so complicated?? all i ever wanted is a lasting rship where trust and communication of paramount importance.
but anyway... i know i'm rather emo today. i just want to be alone hence i took an urgent leave from work. i guess i really need my solace time before i really snap out (i'm already living on last strings).. somehow, in midst of my reflection, my mind was totally spaced out.. thoughts of minwei, ian or guoqing tried to squeeze in but i just went blank.. totally lifeless.
ian said i'm blessed to have someone loving me so much.. but it's too late. i've given up the very last chance of loving, of rship.. not that i'm pessimistic, but i guess 'having my own family' is not planned into my life. if u ask me now, i'd frankly and openly confess to you that i'm very scared of rship. so scared that i'd rather be alone all my life.. somehow since young, in my bones, i just knew 'happily ever after' is not my story ending.. true enough.. i'm tired..
guoqing said i'm still waiting... yes, i am still waiting.. for a miracle of love mercy. love hurts. i dont know about you people - how love had hurt you; but i sure has enough of its painful pranks. there was once i 'got over' yet ended up being hurt.. most hurtful ever. even bosco didnt hurt my core of faith and heart but this time, love did its ultimate show-hand on me.
sorry.. i doubt i can get over this time.. i still love him and miss him..
sorry.. i doubt i can get over this time.. i still love him and miss him..
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