for past weeks, pst kong has been teaching (more teach than preach) us about building relationships, esp in marriage - top 5 needs of man and female and the top 5 love busters.. i cannot agree more to every point taught.. man and woman.. how delicate is a relationship that it requires commitment, sensitivity, trust and effort from both parties (notice that i'm not putting 'love' in; love is a outcome of all these actions).. but it's either i'm sensitive or perhaps effects from overdose of socialise+late nights for past weeks that i'm missing him..
there's a lingering hurt that reminds me how much i miss bosco.. this hurt is NOT the hurt of being hurt.. it's the hurt of missing someone..really missing badly.. it's true - i miss bosco.. yet the rationale part of me reminds me he is comfortably in relationship with another girl and i do really sincerely wish them to be happy together.. i know it sounds too noble to be true, but it's true. i miss bosco for all the joy and laughter, all the sensitive and caring he showered on me, all the telepathic thoughts we shared without words.. yes, moving on is one thing i'm doing very well now (quoted fr Delia last weekend); but afterall i'm created with emotions..
listening to pst kong, it kinda enlightened me on how much i've overlooked (before the incident).. if only my eyes were opened then.. well, i just have to learn thru the hard way.. but yet, learnt the lesson well now, i wonder how much a loss it is to him.. i'm not perfect, but it is quite evident that i've grown, for better or worse, into this mellowed, homely person.. will he miss me? or think of me??
.. what a gd ponder question for the rest of my life..
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