he is confident.. in fact, he's gloating at the fact that he's in singapore whereas he's not. even with my firm distrust in guys, i can feel he's really sorry for what happened.. he tried to contact me 1yr ago thru friendster and even icq *i've totally stopped using for a decade!* with a reason being i was the first person to his mind when he needed someone to talk to *i didnt tell him that he was also the first person i used to think of whenever i need someone to talk to, even after his silly mistake* then as conversation went, i re-empahsized the sincerity of the other, it kinda put him off.. i cant help it, being with mr I, i know i can be totally frank with him without any concerns, even now.. and so i did- "what if i choose him over u?".. "gosh, that hurts.. that will hurt. but i want you to be happy and will respect your decision".. "still friends?" "yes, still friends.. no matter what's your decision, we will be friends" .. i confessed i am more comfortable with him, but i also confessed that mw's sincerity+ his plan to relocate has kinda touched me *come'on, people, how many girls will be so frank to her suitors? at least i am. frankly speaking, it helps to lessen my 'stress' on this issue too* .. and he totally understands my situation with openness (this is one of the things i like about him - not jealous/ sticky, but with total rationale *just like my character, perhaps that's why aqua-libra is best combination*)
i have always enjoyed mr I's company since i knew him years back in sec sch.. i cant out-talk him, but i know i can always turn to him with my problems/concerns and he'll always give logical insights with lotsa patience (our friendship was so close that my first bf was kinda pissed off with him as his classmate)..seriously, if i am not in rship with him, he will be the greatest 'threat' to my partner cos of the closeness and openness we share..
many of you keep asking me who do i like, knowing very well that i cant reply. or rather, is it too early to make such decision? i know someone will be hurt at my decision.. all i can do now is to make this a fair field as possible for everyone. i'm not 'showing off' my suitors but what i really want is to 'update' each other on his rival(s) in this dating game. i strictly follow my rule of thumb: it's always good to understand macro-environment before micro-management. ultimately, the one who understands, accepts and persists thru this 'competition' will be left standing, right? so, let's take a step at a time, ya? please do not ask me such question again.
oh, if there's any good news from last night honest chat... mr I is willing to meet me for CTK Mass on Sunday.. cant tell u how it'll mean a lot to me, but i wont pin any hope till it materialises.. let us just wait n see.
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