27 Mar 10 - wld that make a difference?

someone wanted to know how's my love life now.. mr I or mw.. to be frank, i kinda loss for words myself too

let's start with mr I - after my 'evaluation', i know my attitude towards him changed.. and he kinda felt it. he even msg that he felt that we are drifting.. but, hello~, i rebuked back on his efforts to gain my trust.. i really dont feel it, let alone seeing it. where was and is he during weekends? busy with work on weekends that he cant spare for a meal or something? not that i'm complaining, but if someone is really keen to earn the trust, he/she will make time and effort, right?

as for mw.. he's like a big little boy. recently my ankle hurts due to old injury, and he's been so concerned and even nagging at me to take care of myself. *speaking for himself - what kind of care-taking by being hospitalized for so long?* anyway, ... ok, we've been chatting every night and i kinda look forward to our chat.. on another hand, i'm kinda scared too.. scare of feeling something for him..

i know he really likes (i forbid him to use the word 'love') and dotes on me very much.. to be frank, i really trust him too.. so much so that i told him abt my depression and my blog.. i know some of you will tell me to give him a chance, but i'm really scare.. scare of possible hurt.. after all he's very much different from the guys i used to date.. will that really be a difference in outcome? why does he like me so much in the first place??