2 Mar 10 - 想得寵幸

i know it's silly.. but i was really fuming when he told me he is having mild pneumonia, after morning visit to his doc!! from cough to pneumonia!!! even when i was coughing for months, i also didn't get pneumonia!! how could he not taking care of himself! i was really very angry with him (again!).. thankfully he's on medical leave today, resting at home, lest i'll be SO angry with him! SERIOUSLY!! to the extent that a freaking stupid thought floated accross my mind - to fly over this weekend! WHAT THE HECK!!


but as we chatted further (he regretfully, me annoyingly), i sense and i know he will be take care of himself now *seriously, why cant guys take care of themselves?* .. he also regrets of his behaviour last night *he better be!* and he said sorry. i know 'i am sorry' is not a big deal for a guy to say, let alone typing on msn. but the sincerity of it really can be felt and meant alot to the receiver. i know he is sorry. BUT, being J, i want him to know why he did that, the true reason.. u have to know the truth, the true motivation before u can make any changes. u cannot believe how i drill for a good logical reason - "bewitched" "act of rush" or whatever is totally NOT accepted. 

finally..after 3hrs of interrogation, the real reason is
瑋-@Home says:
 小太監想要娘娘的寵幸...

i smiled at my lappy screen.. finally he recognizes the reason of his behaviour.. finally he sees the cause of his 'childishness'. in return, i was frank to reveal my hurt last night.. well, it sure saddened him a lot for hurting me. however, for me, t'm just glad that both of us can be so honest and direct to each other. everyone errs, so do i. what i hope in every mistake and hurt, is the opportunity to learn and improve. i hope mw feels the same too. 

Psa 30:5

For His anger is but for a moment, His favor is for life;
Weeping may endure for a night, But joy comes in the morning.