15 Jan 09 - Hunter Spirit

for whole day i was 'nagged at' by my good friends (thankfully i dun really have a lot of friends in that category..)... u know who u r.. ok ok, my dears, i'll give it some thoughts ok? ok, enough, zip! i'm going to reflect now. u can feedback by leaving ur comments later..

background:
immediately after i posted the entry last night, someone braced his courage to ask me out on a date.. if i'm a believer in 'signs', i might just think he is the 'answer' with that kind of right timing after that melancholy blog entry.. in fact he said he really prayed hard on this for past days (my goodness, am i that fierce and demanding that pple has to pray before asking me out?!?!) .. dont get me wrong, he's not a bad guy.. in fact, he's quite a 'secured' guy to be with - stable, kind and matured.. and yes, he's older than me (i know some of u are praying for me on this age thingy)..
ok, i am flattered by his initiative and openness, but .. i dun feel the chemistry he felt.. hence, having direct and open personality, i hope i've clarified my stand as a friend.. i know i can be rather tactfully direct when it comes to such requests.. (is it that's why pple are 'scare of' asking me out and that they have to 'pray hard' over it?..sigh..)

reflection:
trust me, i'm not a demanding lady.. and though J is 'approachable' and 'interactive', J dun wan to commit or plant false hopes around either.. he is earnestly looking for a partner; i'm earnestly looking for a friend. it's not that i dont want a partner, but .. if he's for me and is willing to take care of me, he will be determined to pass thru the gate of Friendship first.. make sense?

i'm not closing my doors /options.. i like and i admire him for his initiative (ie. the 'hunter' spirit) but... i have to be true to myself, right? anyway, u can still keep praying if ur desire to 'sell me away' is strong.. maybe miracles may just happen (though i'm skeptical in this area).. maybe perhaps perhaps perhaps..

but do keep doing what is good - PRAY! :) haha...
Thanks for your prayers~!


10句值得深思的話
1) 沒有100分的另一半, 只有50分的兩個人
2) 付出真心才會得到真心, 卻也可能傷得徹底; 保持距離就能保護自己, 卻也註定永遠寂寞
3) 通常願意留下來跟你爭吵的人才是真正愛你的人
4) 有時候不是對方不在乎你, 而是你把對方看得太重
5) 冷漠有時候並不是無情, 只是一種避免被傷害的工具
6) 如果我們之間有1000步的距離, 你只要垮出第一步, 我就會朝你的方向走其餘的999步
7) 為你的難過而快樂的是敵人, 為你的快樂而快樂的是朋友, 為你的難過而難過的就是那些該放進心裡的人
8) Believe 中間也藏了一個lie
9) 真正的好朋友並不是在一起就有聊不完的話題, 而是在一起就算不說話也不會感到尷尬
10) 朋友就是被你看透了, 還是喜歡你的人