1 - Affection ~ Sexual Fulfillment
2 - Conversation ~ Recreational Companion
3 - Honesty & Openness ~ Attractive Spouse
4 - Financial Support ~ Domestic Support
5 - Family Commitment ~ Admiration
Affection + Conversation + Sexual Fulfillment + Recreational Companion = ROMANCE
i wonder if i'm ready to face this ROMANCE thing... can you picture me - holding hands with a guy, walking as a pair of lovey-dovey?? ok, i think that's a sweet desirable feeling, but ... i cant imagine myself into that picture now.
last week , i was discussing with someone about my preference on my partner's church(ie which church will he likely to be from).. and it got me wondering if i shld put that into my criteria list? (talk about detailed and focus.. this will definitely narrow down my scope to the 20,ooo congregation. statistically, it's only a mere few thousands who are male, out of which only a real handful are serving in church. woah, that's what i call FOCUS!)
ya, i do agree the 'same church' principle - walking in the same move(flow) of God. .. somehow, even after a hard lesson with Bosco who is of different church, i still find it difficult to consider guys from same church. call it a rebellion spirit, but i just find it difficult .. or maybe, like what my cgl said 'u ve not found the right one yet'.. statistically, the percentage of ladies in my church are higher than men, and majority of guys i know are happily married or getting married. as for the bachelors remaining, .. i'm sorry, but i feel they seriously need to get a life - both spiritually and relevancy in this mortal world. *dont freak me out, ya?*
last night, or rather this morning, i got a shocking sms.. a church brother wanted to explore possibilities with me. i was so stunned yet decisive to give a outfront diplomatic 'thanks but no' reply.. nevertheless i really have to 'respect' him - he actually dare to ask or even harbour such thoughts. i'm not saying he's not nice, but.. it's VERY OBVIOUS that we are of different wavelength, different lifestyle! And we hardly exchange any words, even though we were in same cg! *dun worry abt embarrassment for us to meet again - i think i can handle that better than him!* i mean, come'on, if u r really looking for partner, why hide in your shell? when you finally able to step out, you surprise (scare!) people with such request?! ..seriously, some people are just WEIRD...WEIRD WEIRD WEIRD.. kinda freak me out now.. *shudders* I think i better include him in my forwarding of those singles' activties emails, and i sure hope the best for him.
ok, then how abt the other churches? hmm.. let me think.. there's only 2 other churches which i'm comfortable with. but.. i hardly know of any interested bachelors who are serving actively in those churches..
come to think of it, being of different churches already has its own set of challenges, let alone being active in respective churches... but i think i've learnt well - no matter who i'm with or where i am, i will still serve in CHC, my home church with my ultimate focus - JESUS CHRIST .. as for the rest, well.. i'm sure a lot of initiatives and commitment from both sides are required.. sigh.. back to square one.
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