time now is 2:10am on early thursday morning.. i slept for past 3hrs and now i cant sleep further.. my mind is so unseemly active.. till my sleeping pill takes effect, i had 2 options - to study my Bible, or to vent out my thoughts or whatever it is in my mind.. i obviously chose the latter.
wondering why i cant enjoy the music tonight (last night).. my body was so stiff for salsa steps; my mind was in such a blank that i cant feel the beat.. even though the guys led well, but i was totally off-beat.. thankfully my steps were still able to cover-up for my listlessness.. no embarrassment made..
for the whole day, i had been in such irritable mood and whining.. i know it's a monthly affair, but ti's a deliberate whine, cant i? the only window of whine-free is when i was in meeting, and i WAS in meeting whole day.. perhaps that's why i whined so much to myself on return journey after dance, to my family and caused my sisters to laugh with tears.. trust me, i can really whine (v. to complain or protest in a CHILDISH fashion) if i do.. TH used to say i'm such a baby when i do that.. *so thank God that you are spared from being my whining audience*
recently several things remind me of Bosco.. Bosco.. 'what a unique name' - that's how i felt when we first met.. how we maintained contact through icq when he was in australia for SAF training.. how we met up when he returned.. and the process to how things are now. *david, i know u dun like me to reminisce such but..sorry bro* .... my triggers?
1) the 2 guys in my dance class are his colleagues - ST Electronic InfoCom.. yes, i know that is a freaking big company with lots of sub-divisions.. but i didnt 'dare' to probe further.. knowing they share a common 'confidential' projects, possibly government projects, as software engineers is enough to set my imagination wild.. too wild with speculations..
2) Pharmanex BioPhotonic Scanner was in my office on Tuesday. ... in my view, Pharmanex = Bosco, cos he was very active in this MLM before he graduated, before i advised to drect his focus to programming as his career. my family and I was among his 'first' customers when he was trying to build his network and downline.. i have got to say this - i really cannot stand the eloquency to speak in a fluent and persuasive manner of a salesmen. when bosco put on that sales front, i will usually stand aside knowing this is not his true self. yes, he cares a lot for the starving children and quality of health these days, but i just dont like the way salespeople talk. i rather be talking about programming language and logic, than to hear something obvious yet as if by buying those products will make difference for the African kids (selective, perhaps). it's like i can tell you the facts of the Bible from old testament into modern science, but do you want me to push the facts down to you? anyway,.. he was really very active then. to the extend he was totally oblivious of my asthma attack when i attended one of the meetings with him.. he was so engrossed in that meeting... i had to call my good friend, who rushed all the way down to Kallang just to pass me my inhaler. (i used to leave inhaler in his car, for emergency purposes),.. of course he was really sorry after the incident ... so many 'interesting' things happened between us when he was trying build his network in this MLM.. i cant deny some products are really worthy, but .. that was not the Bosco i'd want him to be in - he's not his true self in sales, though he has a great heart to care... anyway, i thank God he has taken my advice to advance his career in software engineering now.
... ... finally my sleeping pills are taking effect.. time now is 3:14am.. good night, dears.. good night
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