did i tell u before? for those whom i have not, I LOVE RAINY DAY!
ok, i know i also love sunny day for the sensational heat onto the skin.. but i just love love it when i can sit on my bed with my hot pot of tea, listen to the downpour of blessings from Heaven, and of course, thinking abt ... alot of things.. just me and myself in this moment.. i dun need the stillness of night, just this and this emcompasses my definition of 'relaxation'..
you know, i've been doing quite a lot of silly quizzes in Facebook these days.. the most recent was "are you 100% singaporean".. guess what is my result? "you are not singaporean, but you can live here" oh my goodness, i really do take pride of being singaporean ok? so much so that i studied hotel management cos i had this embassador dream for singapore.. it's true!! i can even vouch on the ridiculous stringent language tests required in MFA interviews cos i went through those nerve-breaking tests twice! that place is recruiting linguistic aliens, not human! (ok, that's my dream job per se.) anyway i went massage ytd and my masseur thought i'm from China (my masseur changes eveytime and all thinks this way).. for better or worse, i cant comment.. but i really hope to have some 'consensus' on my sense of belonging, even though i cannot partake of those chilli spicy food which are singapore's culinary icon (though i love north indian food) and i dont really like to shop (national hobby) now. trust me, i love singapore~
search for personal identity.. a process of adolescence.. who would think that an 'auntie' of 30 is still searching for her self-identification, seeking for support and consensus on her sense of belonging? then again, i think everyone is always searching for confirmation and affirmation throughout their life.. 'how do i look', 'should i do this..' these are common questions esp among us females whose social insecurity are higher than our counterparts. .. i cant be the only one seeking at this age, right? come'on, let the truth surface...
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