16 Feb 10 - If you wanna get with me better make it fast

u know what.. past days i suddenly have this feeling that perhaps i'm not ready for commitment again.. i actually missing someone whom i should not..

i know i'm blessed now with mr I, mw and gq - all indicating their interest to woo me.. yes, u read it right: mr I indicated his interest... but i 'ta-chi' it off with some rational proposition that he could easily find a better girl whom has not lost her faith in guys, in rship (ie emotional baggage).. i know i'm cutting my chances off with him, but i really hope he'll be happier without me.. he's really a much better nicer guy now..

eversince i said that to him, thoughts have been floating ard... of course, mr I will be a better candidate over the other 2 considerations, afterall he was my bf before.. he knew me very well (still do), not to mention that he's the most caring and gentleman of all the guys i've met and been with... somemore, he's singaporean (spare me the long distance stress) libra (my most compatible in horoscope) who actually fulfilled the 5Cs (he's born into the first C)! *see, i told you my criteria is totally possible, not impossible - i had been with one before* do i regret by 'pushing' him off? ermm..yes and no. yes - i admit i still feel for him despite what he had done and thru these yrs.. no - i really want him to be happy (though he said he was really happy when he was with me) *i didn't tell him so was i - i didn't have to worry abt him or how i know he'd take good care of his gf*.. what can i say, i'm complex i know.

well, all i can say now is.. what is yours will be yours.. if he's really keen and persistent, i'm sure God will make a way....fast~! :P


this reminds me of a song - Wannabe by SpiceGirls
"If you want my future forget my past,
If you wanna get with me better make it fast,
Now don't go wasting my precious time,
Get your act together we could be just fine
...
If you wanna be my lover, you gotta get with my friends,
Make it last forever friendship never ends,
If you wanna be my lover, you have got to give,
Taking is too easy, but that's the way it is.

What do you think about that now you know how I feel,
Say you can handle my love are you for real,
I won't be hasty, I'll give you a try
If you really bug me then I'll say goodbye."