17 Feb 10 - u r the reason why i re-watched 'The Lake House' again

motivated to blog it out here.. after opening this issue to my bro and his qns spurred this entry..

"will you love me one day".. what a question to ask, esp ur ex.. yet this is the exact qn mr I posed to me last night, when he came online from nowhere.. ok, i was happy to see him online.. but totally stunned by his qn.. 

at first he initiated the chat as 'i had a boring date with that girl' (note: 'that girl' is still a figure of speech), and his reason - 'thinking of u lor'.. i took it lightly of course.. somehow the conversation led me complaining abt the standard of guys chasing after me, then he surprised me with 'so if i was u'll want me?'.. i WAS surprised, as i said I WAS.. instead of laughing it off this time, i was kinda stern to stop his teasing..but the atmosphere was soon smoothed with my tease to him and a warning that i am a demanding hard-to-please lady if he ever considers.. his ego kinda bounced right back up with double dose of cheekiness with 'u're still important to me' *..cheeky cheeky..*

as just i buzzed him off to his sleep, the ultimate qn popped up 'will u love me one day?'... cant tell u how long i paused staring at my screen, but i managed to tease it off as 'wrong chat window?' even though his 'nope' reply was firm.. i'm not sure if i can trust him but his reply was heartfelt truthful at the point of time - 'i do love u,not yet in a girlfriend way but alot' ..  activiate my 2nd defense!! i counteracted 3 totally logical rational questions to define that qn into quantitative terms..

by this point, u people should know that i'm FREAKING OUT.. totally grateful, loved yet freaking out! i'm flattered, happy or even elated by his confession if i may regard it.. but.. trust.. the element of trust is not secured.. hence i replied 'if there's ever a day where a guy can resolve my skeptical qns, .. that will be the day i'm not single' .. and he took such freaking long time to reply my statement that we decided to talk about it another time.. *thank God for another time - hopefully i'll be ready by then*

ok i know i've disclosed a 'private' conversation here.. but i am really very confused now ok? with mw coming over today to 'know me more', this whole thing is really freaking me out..  really freaking me out!! and before i forget, someone please keep gq out of the picture.. do not let him join into this freaking mess now~ i'll just faint!