totally freaked out and totally lost my composure .. when i was walking with mw from my office to our lunch appointment, mr I saw and he called me to 'laugh at me'.. u CANNOT believe how panicky i was!! i turned around to the direction of his office, and i was so so lost in my heart.. i'm pretty sure mw felt the difference in attitude~
ok, i know i'm 'playing' with 2 nice guys here.. but I'm NOT!
over past week, i managed to come clean with each party of the existence and interest of the other party.. in short, i told mw about me having an ex-bf wanting to patch things back; mr I about me having a long-distance interested party.. *see, i'm NOT a fling* it really helped me to lighten a lot of my load by coming clear to them (as clear as i can).. as u can read from my previous entry, mr I was loss of words while mw understood my options.. ok, he was pretty affected by at least he knows, ya?
the horror came when both 'met' each other just now, with me as 'common reference'!
i had the most uneasy lunch facing mw, having my mind wondering what mr I would think.. but thankfully or not, mr I immediately initiated a coffee chat after lunch.. which obviously FREAK ME OUT, cos mw is still with me.. and he's alone in this first time visit! i really wanted to know how is Mr I taking this 'hey, your bf huh' incident, yet i do not want mw to feel neglected.. i'm so in deep shit!
somehow, i managed to buzz mw off to some self-exploration.. while i met up with mr I.. *trust me, i DO feel damn guilty, ok!* despite my very skeptical front to Mr I, i am actually quite glad that he actually 'care', even though he did not ask me any qn on mw.. we just enjoyed each other's company over coffee and the breeze at singapore river (well, he did mentioned abt going on holidays with the girl he like and asking now.. but i pushed it off with a cynical laugh).. i am VERY SKEPTICAL yet glad that he still cares for me..
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