can i tell u that i'm very upset.. over 2 persons?
1) i had a dinner date with a guy i met online.. yes, i'm that bored to agree to his date but trust me, he's so OUT! first, he's late; second, he didn't even offered to pay for the meal (we shared some dishes); and lastly, he's a total BORE!
i'm sorry, but if i had to initiate conversation, which my 'aggressive' attitude usually compels me to kill the silence, then you are out of the list~ and i'm not a person of giving chance for second date. and even as we chat, if the topic is not 'in-tuned', then please.. i'd prefer to eat alone or stay at home with my hugo.
i'm not 'high expectations'.. but being a 'buddy' girl who thinks and behaves boyish, if u still cant be the man as u are called to be, then trust me, i can be more manly than u.. what should i need a date then? silence and telepathy with my hugo is more comfortable than being with such 'weak' man. next better date, please~
2) i'm kinda grounded from going out in cold (cool) weather, esp at night, bcos of my sensitive lungs. didn't i tell u i've been coughing mad these days and cos of my bad cough i've been keeping away from service?
yes, i know church service is important.. but at the rate that someone doesn't trust me on my health, really discourages me from pushing myself to attend anyway.. i told u it's natural for anyone to doubt me cos i'm so healthy in the day, but why should i curse myself if i'm all so well?
anyway, i went to the doc for the 2nd time on my cough.. she said my lungs is really weak, esp in the extreme weather these days. i have to be careful and really keep as warm as possible and as cool as possible, so not to trigger the sensitive lungs. of course, being so sensitive to flu and colds, i'm in high risk of H1N1. i just have to be extra careful in this crazy weather.
trust me, people, when u see me healthy and well in the day, do not be deceived by my looks. when i'm suffering with bad hard coughs and running sensitive nose at night, i am often near my death-bed literally. the fight i've to put on to survive every night, esp in this Oct-Jan season.. i can just die if i dun fight at night.
yes, i know it'll be very hard for u to believe, but seriously why should i lie? why should i keep myself at home when i need to step out for a walk or to relax? dont i want to live and go out like normal people? when everyone is enjoying the cool breeze in this tropical island, cant you be more understanding to people like me whose death trigger is this coolness? u may not experience what i do, but try to believe there're weakness in everyone even though they are 'perfectly' ok.
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