my heart hurts so so soo much again.. the pain which on one can understand. a knife stabbing into my heart.. it is so painful so painful .. i cried out his name but no one answer.. i cried out to God but no sign of response.. it is just so painful..so painful..
i still love my darling, i still love him a lot.. even though i've to go thru depression again, but this doesnt take away my hope my love in him. i know he is not like this. yes, people change but my darling has a good nature, his core character is good.. i know cos i feel his inside heart..
i just dont know what happened which made him make such single-minded decision.. if it's for our rship, i'd appreciate if he could discuss with me, not solo decision. God, please help this pain to stop. it's far more painful than previous time.. and this time i confess i do not have that faith to seek after Your wiill.. i just want my darling to come home to me.
i know he's stressed, he's confused.. he's avoiding me. but i look forward to the day he finds his way home to me. let me love be his guide, i'll wait for him to go home. no one had ever brought me so much joy than him. no one has ever make me overcome my depression on love than him. his confidence, his love will find his way home to me.. i just have to wait. love is patience, love is kind. i love my darling more than anuthing. God, please have mercy and grace on us both - in his work let him have favour of men to wotk with. let the Holy Spirit guide and direct his way back hom to me. i love you darling, i still do.
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