ok, God, I really have to give it to You.. for all the special friends You've brought during past weeks.. tough struggling past weeks..in order of appearance..
JENNIFER - upon knowing my depression relapse, her sunflower was the first to arrive to bring out any smile i might have.. i really appreciate that, esp she placed it in my arms when i was asleep. for that instant when i opened my eyes, i know someone cares, someone is waiting for me to get well.. thanks, jen, really thank you!
LYDIA - she's just a mere acquaintance, a one-time friend i met during gun-shooting.. yet she was the first one online to share my pain, said a prayer for me when i'm totally faithless. she tried to encourage and restore some faith in God, but i know it's because of HER faith that i am still surviving.. her faith in prayer..
JOANNE - she's like the BEST COUNSELLOR of the world. serious. she 'dragged' me out of my house, chatted about my pain and hurt *mind you, she REALLY FEELS for me!* even before i can describe my pain, she knew exactly how it feels and we just connect! though reality hurts the hell of me, but i'm glad she's always there to share my emotional moments and sprinkle some sense for recovery. she is just amazing and truthful! i'd never regret knowing her as good friend. oh, she is also very amazing in shopping n eating.. i can simply follow her around and watch her getting her new clothes everytime!
IAN - what can i say? i've known this guy for 16yrs. all these yrs, he's always around for me, with me and through my tears and sobs. when i cant cope, he'd just let me cry on his shoulders, while he (enjoys) patting my head and kept calling me 'silly girl'.. dont ask me why rship didnt work out between me and ian, it just didn't. we are better off being special friends for each other. he's the only one guy who dares to be brutally blunt to me, and yet knowing i'd listen! what the heck! thankfully he's a man of few words, FEW BRUTAL BLUNT words. but i really thank God that he's always around me through these years.. let's just keep it that way.
EIRENE - my 'twin' sister for 31yrs.. she is another one who 'dragged' me out, didnt mind being my chauffeur around the island, as long as i'm out of the house. being the bubbling tough girl, she might not understand the struggle i'm feeling but she is sure ard me anytime. she even volunteered to drive me to airport on sat, even though my flight is 7am! she is just so good and patient with me.. i really appreciate,babe! i really do.
GUOQING - as usual he's fuming upset when he heard the news, in his own way he kept me chatting on the nights when i miss my darling.. he always tell me 'there're all bad guys in taiwan,except me' and i wonder if that IS true. but again, dont ask me why didnt i consider him for rship.. same as ian, our friendship has become more than just friendship. though he's miles away, but his support, care and patience are always around for me. i know i can always call and pour my woes to him, he's a very protective brother to me.
KAI - his first words to me are 'you're coming back for healing again!' what the hell, another blunt 'inconsiderate' guy in my life.. yet he knows he can be so damn blunt with me! but i really appreciate his first response to all my healing retreats to taiwan, he never leave me alone. with his 'creativity' and 'leadership' character, he always planned my taiwan wkends immediately once he knows i'm going. at least i know my time will be 'fully scheduled' when he's around. ok, dont ask me why not him, there's just no chemistry over these 4yrs. he's really a big brother who takes really good care of me when i m in taiwan.
ok.. God, these are my special friends whom i seldom contact yet when i'm down at my pit (again), they come back into my life to bring life and support to me.. i suppose i can say thank You, Lord, for these special friends. keep them coming in.. i really need all the support i can have..
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