another day started with such pressure on the heart.. trust me, i tried to relax myself but nothing ease the pain except sleep.. so i slept.. till 11.30am.. ya that's about the time i wake up every day now.. even though my bio-clock still works, waking me up at 7am, i simply took my pill then.. so that makes my routine - 7am fluoxetine, 11.30am cod syrup and vitamins, 4pm cod syrup and 9pm cod syrup.. anything that keeps me sane..
now that i'm sane, no more panic attack, i have to find a way to keep my heart from all the pressure everyday.. it might be my slow-death if this pressure keep acting on my heart like this, i might have a heart attack anytime..
today is exact 1 week since i'm not working.. i really dont know how long this recovery will take, but it's really testing my patience.. at this rate i'm going, i might as well be 'scare' of talking to my sisters.. obviously, our conversations kinda limited than before cos i just dunno what to say to them.. looking at them - preparing for work and tuitions, i feel kinda useless..
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