i'm offered the position on the spot.. but it's nothing that i'm proud of.. i've a good piece of mind to reject the offer actually... though it's of my expected salary and job scope, but it's a local company whose boss was from MNC (hence she can tell you all the pros n cons of being in MNC).. but ultimately, i ask myself am i ready to work.. cos my heart is so much under pressure that i've to quicken my pace back home before i drop dead or worse, break down in depression..
let's go back to my option; i can continue to job hunt or accept this offer. job scope wise, i've no issue - it's what i enjoyed doing as office manager. but the working culture and environment is another issue which leaves me stressed.. i tried not to compare my previous 'best' 'ideal' work environment but .. somehow this work environment does not give me the peace nor the 'yes i want to work here' feeling.. instead, to be frank, i had the good piece of mind not to work here before the interview started, be it my condition or my intuition.. but now i'm in this fast-pounding stressed heart when they offered me.. what the heck am i doing? now i've to take another dose of prozac to calm me down..
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with the increased dosage, my body is reacting to its effects - fatigue.. and the more i tried to convinced myself to accept the job, the more i feel obligated.. so i decided to give them my rejection tmr.. perhaps it's not the time to work yet, perhaps it's really not a suitable environment.. but whatever it is, i have to bear the consequences of rejecting this offer... J, you really have to stay close to God, only He will give u the best~
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