1 Jan 10 - sembawang park n room

did you people had a good countdown and rest? well, i sure had a great BBQ gathering w my relatives.. we (the younger generation) were so happy and efficient in getting the food cooked that we practically cooked 90% within 2hrs, and resulted in lotsa leftovers. then someone came up with this idea of forfeit which i could nearly die! i ate 4 fishballs in a row, just because i lost in our cardgame! *seriously, J, you shld have known better to play.. u could have choke yourself, you know?* and that game of 99 required so much concentration cos i kept forgetting to replace my cards!
anyway, that was it - nice fun night of food and games.

as just i'm about to turn in for the countdown (totally tired after the games;no energy for countdown), CK asked me out for a chat.. i went, we chat and ok, that was a proper 2nd nightout (i chose to remember good dates only).. things are clearer and yet, still open for options. never mind abt the details, i also couldn't remember much.. cos i was kinda affected by the venue.. the memories in that place - Sembawang Park. ok, i know i should not but i just cant help it when i'm back to such memorable place, ya?

guess the impact was kinda great cos it affected my sleep.. i'm back to his room where everything stayed the way they were when we were together, before he left.. *it's actually kinda weird that i actually still remember how he arranged his things, but hey, the fact that i'm remembering also means i'm regaining my memory function of brain about him = recovered from the great trauma.* anyway, he was not in that room anymore..in fact, that (505) room was locked before someone (i dun remember) trespassed in and open from inside.. an empty room with table fan switched on, and my photos on his table.. it's like visiting a crime scene where everything was so 'real' except they are "in the past"..trust me, it's not my favourite scene, esp my parents were in that dream too, looking around for him and very concerned about how i was taking his absence... the part that i like best is that i entered the room with hurt and disappointment, but left with relief - a sense of 'ok, i'm moving on'. then, i'm transported into the sunshine in my dream, before i woke up..

is there a joseph in my midst who can explain this dream to me??