22 Jan 10 - ok, it's a crush..end

it's like a 'prayer answered' when A suddenly initiated a hang out after his gym (after my coffee chat w jen).. to be frank, i was actually looking forward to meet him.. ask jen who witnessed how flustered i was, as if i'm going on a prom date~

after meeting A, i only have 1 conclusion - God is fair.
true, he's very talented in music and also in language.. but his 'people skills' is really not there yet.. ok, u may say i'm superficial, but he sure looks very different from his pictures.. and after being on a 4hrs conversation with him in person, i kinda had a 'comparison chart' ... here's it (oh btw, i've included this old friend whom i've known for years.. might be familiar to u if u knew me before bosco's time - mr I)

arrogance
CK-9/10 A-8/10 I-8/10
charisma
CK-8/10 A-6/10 I-7/10
common faith
CK-3/10 A-0/10 I-0/10
difference acceptance
CK-5/10 A-7/10 I-8/10
height
CK-7/10 A-6/10 I-7/10
initiative
CK-9/10 A-5/10 I-7/10
physical appearance
CK- 7/10 A-5/10 I-8/10
socialization
CK-8/10 A-6/10 I-8/10
sporty
CK-7/10 A-9/10 I-5/10
wits
CK-8/10 A-8/10 I-7/10

Total
CK = 71% ; A=60% ; I=65%

overall, i must say ...
i enjoy the initiative, charisma and wittiness of CK, despite his disrespectful words... being with him is really very much enjoyable than talking with him.. if only he can stop being so cynical in his words to me..
i enjoy the sensitivity, logical rationale and musical talents of A, however perhaps due to his strong analytics, he was really not that charismatic.. i think i can understand why his subordinates are kinda 'against' him..

but all in all.. i know i'd still prefer the company of I over CK/A, yet CK (if he really start caring abt me n everyone/everything of me) over A .. even though i was really looked forward to meet A in person, now i kinda hope we'd still remain online friends for the flow of communication.. in person, he's a very factual n hard-to-please person cos of his principles.. can u believe how firm he is when he believes dancing n music is very personal, whereas for me - dancing n music are very social activities to enjoy?