what a happy occasion of marriage.. what a blissful scene in front of the camera.. but her dying dog lying weak in the background sharing her joy. he can hardly open his eyes cos of his pain, yet that day he struggled so much to witness her joy..
the moment i saw the starting of this documentary, even for that mere 5 mins, i know i cant.. i simply cant stay on to watch further.. cos tears were already flooding in my eyes...no matter how happy she is for her marriage, i know and i feel for her pain n her fear of having to let him go one day.. i also know she wont leave him alone or let someone else take care for her, even though it's her happy moments of her life.. i also wont.. no matter how happy i would be for my wedding, if anything, just anything, happens to my hugo, nothing, simply NOTHING, can take us apart! i wont want him to leave my sight 24/7, even though i might be tired..
i excused to take a bath, where i cried with my heart out for this little maltese.. he's so weak yet so strong to struggle to open his eyes to share her joy.. i cried.. i really cried throughout the whole 15mins bathing process.. i thought the show will be over by the time i finished bath.. yet, the moment i stepped into living room, i cried again.. in front of my mum who was watching the 'final part' of it.. even though i jolly well missed a great part of the 30mins show, but i felt the love they shared.. so strong and their pain.. in fact, i'm still crying now as i type..
yes, u may say i'm emotional. but if u r an animal lover, like me, it just hurts so much to see animals suffering, let along your beloved pet. it's a fact that i feel more for animals than humans (fyi, i had wept 37times in the 2yrs as hamsters' mother).. looking at hugo who is lazing in his cushion bed, i am comforted that he's still here with me.. but how long?? i tell u, when what happened with bosco grieved me for 2yrs, be warned n prepared that i'll mourn even longer for hugo.. it may never be recovered.. be sure i'll have another wave of depression!
my hugo, my precious.. please take care of yourself, stop eating things which you know you should not. stay happy and loved for it's known to lead good long life. if one day you should leave me, please leave in a healthy happy state.. if you love me which i know you do, dun let me see you struggling in pain to breathe another breath.. i would really exchange all my remaining life just to see you smile again.
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