20 Jan 10 - O company

i know i should log this ytd where all the hipe was, perhaps it's better to log now cos i'm calmer.. clearer to think..

O company called me after finding my resume on monster *see, i told u guys monsters works for lazy jobseekers~at least for me* immediately, the next few hours were madness with a panel interview and a 2nd interview with director.. *gosh, why IT companies is always so anxious? my pervious S company also did this to me, made me panicky over 1 position* and hence, i was hiped up again by their silly anxiousness.. the weird thing is i really dont know how their system work before i get into the company - S and O. as much as i know they are major player (and payers) in the market, such skillset is asset, but i really has no experience till i'm in. ok, anyway, after all the interview hipe, i concluded - J,u really know how to crap.. perhaps that's why people say i perform well in interviews - with my simply heck care attitude + my opinionated personality, the moment i shake hands with my interviewer(s) i can be very crappy, even to my own definition. but hey, that's interview, right? afterall i used to be interviewer - been there done that of listening to craps, now it should their turn.

i know everyone is telling me to move cos of $$ but i really hope to settle down in somewhere permanently as retirement, perhaps. as much as the $$ is tempting (esp at my age), but my ability to clean shit-hole is declining with depression. afterall, every company has its shit-hole, it's just a matter do u want/are u able to take the shit. i asked gwen who replied it's the decision of resident to choose his own shit-hole. *thanks, dear, that's very enlightening* .. in the end, i'm still confusing+tempted as in what to do..

anyway, i decided to list what the pros n cons of moving onto O
+ high pay
+ enhance my HR resume
+ good retirement ground
+ chances to travel
+ US work culture *i like~*

- might not be able to get out of that job scope ever
- stress and higher expectations (more than S company)
- central yet far from MRT
- long hours *my workaholism welcomes that*
- no more office freedom
- cannot out/around freely as now
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