before i switched off for the day, after almost 13hrs of preparation and coordination for Cheryl's wedding, i really have to note this down.. oh btw, CONGRATULATIONS, MR & MRS DON CHNG..
looking at all the hipe in bride's entourage, i really felt so 'nothing', let alone planning those 'trials and tests' for the bridegroom. all the exotic food and drinks, all those fancy games and questions.. i really felt "oh come'on, these're so oldfashioned in different presentations, again?''
perhaps i should be happy in weddings, perhaps i'm really tired.. perhaps the reason why i'm not married cos i'm not ready for such wedding stuff.. emotionally and mentally, i had been there done that (ie married) even though legally not so. all the wedding planning, details and arrangements had my full attention and had been vividly 'rehearsed' when i was 'married' then. every details, every process flow and JP to appoint had been carefully thought in details and planned.. yes, it was mind-straining but it was J before my wedding burst into the air where it was.
sharing cheryl's careful (elaborated) planning today, i know and i know this is my last entourage assistance cos i really dont feel the excitement of waking up early, assisting the bride to take care of details throughtout the day, making every guests feel welcomed and ensuring everything everyone is well-taken care of. from foreseeing to planning, from planning to coordinating, from coordinating to executing... i can really understand why it seems like a 'event', rather than a wedding..
what will happen to my own wedding (if i ever have the chance)? will i go thru those detailed planning?? will i get excited??? i doubt so.. for current J, if i could outsource everything to someone, i'd gladly do so (even though i still agree that it will be more fun and commitment for wedding couple to go thru the 'torturous' planning). of course, i'll still want to choose my own wedding gown or even design one. but the rest.. can i trust and throw them upon my fussy complainsome sister (i'll close both eyes to ensure we dun quarrel)? i know my young cousins are looking forward to be my entourage but do i really want an entourage??
for now, my dream wedding is really 'get over and done with'.. the appeal of fuss-free wedding holiday seems so good - register marriage, fly out with immediate families as a wedding celebration. or better still, register marriage and a 10 tables (relatives only) with Holy Matrimony and that's it~ i really dont mind having a picnic wedding if possible.. what else matters when i have my whole family and beloved hugo to witness and share my joy? how about my friends?? ermm.. marriage is now a 'private' celebration, i'll treat them to a meal or so in the right time..
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