can i be really really bluntly honest in MY BLOG?!
i really think i have really liked CK, despite his arrogance and misanthropical attitude! *ooh my gosh,J!* yes, omg is the word i've been telling myself.. but i cant help thinking abt his words, no matter how irritating it rings in my ears; cant help wondering what on earth is he thinking, even though i know it's all about himself; cant help guessing what is his motivation for knowing me.. yes, you can say i still dont trust him yet it is exactly this distrust that attracts me.. it's not about 'it's usually jerks whom girls fallen in love' but it is really our difference that attracts me... yes, i know i'm courting for trouble (as usual.. right, GQ?)
after my final chat with him, his 'gd morn' and 'how's ur day' greetings just seem to disappear altogether.. i know guys are able to let the affairs of heart go easily, afterall it's only 1wk rship (if i can call it a rship). but somehow, there're so many qns about him which ... unsettled. i know i have to let it go.. i know somehow i will .. but meantime, allow me to ponder and wonder on this mysterous attraction which is haunting me..
will he take another step to know me again? NOPE, i seriously doubt so, unless he's nuts. after 3 crashing course of outings, i think i know him that much to know that he wont regret on his actions done.. unless a miracle happens~ ... *J, stop checking ur msn for him to be online!* *stop getting excited when he is online!*
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