i woke up in fright this morning cos sydney came into my room to bark! and after that, the normal routine of hurt,pain and missing came in.. i just lay in bed under their morning torture.. then as if God has mercy on me - it rained heavily suddenly! i told u i love storms, i love rain.. but this rain just came so unexpectedly and so comforting! listen to the splatter of rain and thundering roar, i just feel so 'cosy' on my bed despite the torture.. are You trying to hint that You are watching over me? to comfort me? well.. if You are, then get rid of my depression! it's not really right to depend on pills but yet it's my only survival mean now.
i tried to be positive - thinking of what to do today. my best option so far is to return to office. i know richie has volunteered to accompany me, ian has asked me out.. but i really feel so lazy to go out, to meet people. office seems to be a better option for a workaholic, i can clear my emails, stay on top of the matters, do my filing and get things organised. i know it's nuts, but hey.. i'm workaholic, ok? anyone of you want to volunteer yourself to help in my filing? i've lotsa personnel files to create n to file away. i've closed my sept payroll and starting on October payroll now. no, payroll is not something i like to do, but it does demand full concentration which i gladly tried to give now.
seriously.. it's so nice to sleep now, though i've just woke up. ok, let me take the sleep pill n doze till it's time to go office. eirene just sms to remind me of the hiking trip tmr.. trust me, if it doesnt rain like today, my legs will be aching so badly after that hike. but it's one way to spend my time... thank you, eirene.
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