as the world sets 911 as 'the day that changed america', i still remember how happy my family was that night, celebrating my sis' birthday.. well, we were celebrating in front of the news then. anyway, my point is.. today 110910 seems to be the 'happiest' day since all these loveSHIT happened.
1) i remembered how breathless and panting i was when i first took on bt timah nature reserve hill slope. it is VERY STEEP! it's not the height, but the STEEPNESS! but this morning, walking up the slope again, i even managed to conquer the wearisome stairways *trust me, it's stepmaster900!!* and i'm hardly panting!! i'm so proud of myself - i have not been running/exercising lately yet i can still maintain my stamina, at least i'm not panting for breathe! we even walked through all the trails, just to challenge ourselves. and I DIDNT FAINT! i'm so happy with myself when we finally rested in sentosa's beach cafe (we drove there, of course!) *oh, did i mention i LOVE my new sunglasses? the lenses are just so protective! i'm so comfortable with it, though people think i'm anti-social to wear indoors* heck it~ i just love wearing my protective sunglasses, hit me if u dare!
2) my family had a high-tea celebration for my sis' birthday. well, the food spread was nice but i'm not exactly in the mood for high-tea. i still miss my darling.. i'm just trying to be enjoying, afterall i'm wearing my new clothes, and i like the way i look in it. i'm enjoying my clothes, more than the food. anyway, for the buffet price i really ate very little. but i'm glad my family is with me, esp my dad. he's very particular about food, it's hard to invite him out but i know he came this time, just to see i'm ok now. *trust me, at this rate that i am really trying to be ok and my acting skills can really surpass the professionals~*
3) immediately after hightea, my relatives called for a seafood dinner gathering. for those of you who dont know, i'm from a big extended family, with me being the eldest cousin. among my younger cousins, esp my dearest monkey, i just let loose of my dignity/ pride as the eldest. i just want to be another monkey with my monkey, with my cousins. each of us has such different stories, difficult childhood but as we grow older, all those 'knots' seems to untangle themselves and tied us closely ever since. i just love my cousins, my relatives who are always around me. though the eldest, i just want to be the youngest among them. i hate to grow up. since young, this is always been my wish - i dont want to grow up cos i know i'll face a lot of problems and heartaches.. and i think I HAVE ENOUGH! i just want to be young and silly, even if it means to make a fool of myself. i think they'll upload those ridiculous photos in FB, but.. i'm not logging in there.
that's how i survived the past 12hrs.. fruitful with a lot of help and support from eirene, elsie, family and relatives. but i cant deny the fact i still miss my darling.. hoping he might just be here with me, with my family, with my relatives.. next weekend is my relatives' annual mid-autumn gathering. i had always looked forward to this, cos all members of my family will gather around under my bright sister, chatting, eating and even singing along to some silly songs. but this yr, i dont know if i could enjoy as much.. i miss my darling, my part of my 'family'.
你知道吗 爱你并不容易
这需要很多勇气
是天意吧 好多话说不出去
就是怕你负担不起
你相信吗
这一生遇见你 是上辈子我欠你
是天意吧
让我爱上你 才又让你离我而去
也许轮回里 早已注定
今生就该我还给你
一颗心在风雨里 飘来飘去
都是为你
一路上有你 苦一点也愿意
就算是为了分离与我相遇
一路上有你 痛一点也愿意
就算这辈子注定要和你分离
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